dialogue to self about meds and life, i am HIV positive with Hep C

Thursday, January 27, 2005

well i made it to lousyville. and i am having so much fun. but it is bitter fuckin cold here. i need some palm trees now. lol. no time to do much except have some fun. flight in wuz even early. how good is that. well gtg. p/l to all. rev. vernon.

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

ok im back for a little bit. been driving miss ho wild. she can not wait until i get into town, me as well. hoping that it is a drier trip this time. maybe. i am looking forward to seeing the old stomping grounds again. again i will enter the city as a victorious king. that i am. lol. well i played my last football game tonite. i am now looking forward to softball in 2 weeks. they are doing a 7 man fball league. but these old bones can not do it. softball is so much less body contact. lol. then i have gotten some responses from american singles. the first lady i met, already sent me a dear mike letter. the very first lady i meet in person, in the flesh...and she sends me this note after 1 dinner date. her loss. too bad. well gtg. got some packin to do. love and peace to all. rev. vernon.

Saturday, January 22, 2005

me again. i have been doing the american singles.com website. to no avail. i met 1 lady and 2 days later she gave me a dear john letter by email. what a laugh. after being on the internet for like 20 years or longer, being with the university and all. then there is this 1 hot senorita that put my messages on auto reject. that felt good. out of 90 emails i sent out. i have gotten like 3 good responses. and that is counting the one that sent me the dear j letter. well life does go on. i had dinner with the waitress friend of mine. and tonite she asks me to lunch. yummmy. she is yummy.. well i am off again. i will try to check in more often. life is swell. love and peace to all. rev. vernon.

hi 1 ho ...........luv ya. i do..!!!!
well it has been some time since i made an effort to log in here. sorry about that. i am doing much better, mentally that is. at least. i gave blood this week and that has been since october 26, 04. i have been off meds for that long as well. no HIV drugs that is. i curious to see what the results produce this week. i am also off to lousyville this week. flyin up for a 4 day weekend. i have been going out on weekends and dancing at the club in town. on other news fronts of mikeys' life. some have taken notice.

well off for now. gtg. peace and love to all. rev. vernon.

hello 1 ho....luv ya

Friday, January 14, 2005

well it is my big ole bday today. i am 40 today. and it was a doozy. i could not get zoe off my mind today. it was harder than xmas for some reason. she always went out of her way for my bday. no matter how poor we were. well then i am off to shellys house for the party. got my jaggermiester. so it will be a good evening. lol. i am also going into dunedin tomorrow for an art show. a certain lady is displaying her goods, in more ways than 1. lol. ooh nooo, i just realized that she is also would be a miss j. boohoo. but it is all good in the long run. she is also an artist. 2 whammy. anyway. new person, new reality. right. !!! no predisposed opinions about this 1. so gtg for now. rev. vern signing off. wonder if miss 1 ho is going out to dinner tonite w/pork? big shout out to miss 1 ho. who does not know yet, but i got my plane ticket today to go back to lousyville. c ya on the 27th of this month. yippeee. love and peace to all.

Thursday, January 13, 2005

1 beautiful word..... prenuptials.....1 ho.....get that message....lol....

prenup


prenup


prenup



lololololo

lmao


lmao

lmao


WELL ME AGAIN. w/out shouting now. i will be 40 in less than an hour...ugh...!!!!!!!!!! but i had an awesome day in the roofing biz. 1 day mite have to tell about it. i am still doing alrite. missing my zoester. even as the bday fast slams down on me. ugh and lol. did not share with any one 2nite about my bday tomorrow. did get some jaiger for it. not even sure how to spell it. mite wake up with a shot. would that make a drunk or what. . ..... jaigger and an omlette for breakfast. lately i have missed zoe. like you would not know. it wuz not that bad over the holidays. i mean it never got crushingly bad. like it has the last 2 days or so. and again i can only attribute it to missing zoe. last year, again i was just getting over losing her. now it kind a like the bell was rung last year, but this year the refurbration of the bell is hitting the soul. and i mean deep soul matter. i miss her dearly. but she knows that, and hopefully would want me to get on with living my life. like again shawshank redemption.. .....getting busy living or get busy dying. i think i want to live, so here is to another 40 fuckin years on this earth. c ya....rev. vernon.
yyyoooooooo 1 ho!!!!!! ya listening???? go 2 www.americansingles.com and put in zip code of 34205 and c if i cum up!!! hope ya like the pics. lol. 1 shout out to 1 hoooooooooo!!! c-ya. peace and love to all on this eve of my 40st bday. goddamn. can i say that. 40st. ask my bro in law if i have to have a prostate test from now on annually. he told me only if i am lucky to have a nice tall blonde german nurse. lol. well 1 ho. this chickola did write me back from st. pete on the site of the month. lol. all the hags on there look old, or the young white chicks give me no reponse, or even the instant rejection with the NEVER ANSWER THIS ASSHOLE'S EMAIL IN THE FUTURE. NOT EVEN IN THE NEXT LIFE TIME.........PLEASE DEAR GOD GET THIS ASSHOLE OFF MY EMAIL ACCOUNT. LOL. AND THEY WONDER WHY SOME GUYS ARE SHY....ME. C YA
yyyoooooooo 1 ho!!!!!! ya listening???? go 2 www.americansingles.com and put in zip code of 34205 and c if i cum up!!! hope ya like the pics. lol. 1 shout out to 1 hoooooooooo!!! c-ya. peace and love to all on this eve of my 40st bday. goddamn. can i say that. 40st. ask my bro in law if i have to have a prostate test from now on annually. he told me only if i am lucky to have a nice tall blonde german nurse. lol. well 1 ho. this chickola did write me back from st. pete on the site of the month. lol. all the hags on there look old, or the young white chicks give me no reponse, or even the instant rejection with the NEVER ANSWER THIS ASSHOLE'S EMAIL IN THE FUTURE. NOT EVEN IN THE NEXT LIFE TIME.........PLEASE DEAR GOD GET THIS ASSHOLE OFF MY EMAIL ACCOUNT. LOL. AND THEY WONDER WHY SOME GUYS ARE SHY....ME. C YA
yyyoooooooo 1 ho!!!!!! ya listening???? go 2 www.americansingles.com and put in zip code of 34205 and c if i cum up!!! hope ya like the pics. lol. 1 shout out to 1 hoooooooooo!!! c-ya. peace and love to all on this eve of my 40st bday. goddamn. can i say that. 40st. ask my bro in law if i have to have a prostate test from now on annually. he told me only if i am lucky to have a nice tall blonde german nurse. lol. well 1 ho. this chickola did write me back from st. pete on the site of the month. lol. all the hags on there look old, or the young white chicks give me no reponse, or even the instant rejection with the NEVER ANSWER THIS ASSHOLE'S EMAIL IN THE FUTURE. NOT EVEN IN THE NEXT LIFE TIME.........PLEASE DEAR GOD GET THIS ASSHOLE OFF MY EMAIL ACCOUNT. LOL. AND THEY WONDER WHY SOME GUYS ARE SHY....ME. C YA

Sunday, January 09, 2005

hello world. i have had pc problems over the holidays. but i got that fixed finally. and wanted to say hello. needed to say hello. well i survived another holiday period without zoe. it was better. i guess. there were ups and downs like we all have. but my heart is slowing mending. slowly. i am glad 04 is over with. now for 05. i turn 40 on the 14th. so look out world. almost ready for my AARP. lol. not really. maybe it is true what they say. life begins at 40...!!! stay tuned. love and peace to all who may read these pages. rev. vernon.