i am back. i am getting better and better, or should i say stronger and stronger with each passing day. i still miss my wife. but for that matter i miss the touch of her skin. i almost crave human touch. not so human, but woman touch. their scent and their taste. to be in that atomosphere again. i walk by women out or so, and take in their scent. i am doomed.

but i am getting stronger. today i got a note from miss j. and i wrote her last week. so it was good to get a response.

as for dates. well let me put it this way. rome was not built in 1 day... or wuz it? i always forget that answer. lol.

i crack myself up. lol. i am playing with the idea of going up north one more time to get my shit. i am aiming to go there maybe next month, towards the end of march. who knows.

i have been emailing this girl in russia. i think she is fraud. but who knows. she has not rightly, yet, anway and ask me for money. i am just waiting. she is talkin about coming for a visit soon. ouch. and i mean ouch. i will let you all know how far that goes. lol.

other than that i have been getting dates with soccer moms. lol. old soccer moms at that. lol. made my age limits on yahoo a lot lower, like 42 or so. maybe that will weed out the old ladies. maybe i am asking for 2 much. i am after all 40. when i mentioned green day to this woman last week, she was like UGH!!!!!! lol. again i crack myself up.

i was at the bar last weekend and was looking to talk to this one young lady there. well this other 1 came up with bleach blonde hair, but it was cut like a buzz. instantly i thought it that cindy lauper? and said that to this young lady. she looked at me like i had 3 heads, and said "i don't know"?!!! (with the look in her eye, you fuckin freak!!!)

but today i realized that that lady was probably way, i mean way too young to even know cindy lauper. i instantly got out the wheelchair to wheel myself home. lol. and back to the home. lol.

well i got a new name this week for me. my new name is now, miquel gomez. hope ya like it. peace and love to all. miquel.

1 more thing i hate today. people that do not compromise. when people upset you, or hurt you, you should get over it at some point. unless the offense is like they killed your mother/dad or they have cut off your arm or leg. they upset you or hurt you in the past. that is why it is called the past. it happened in the past, now get over it. again i remain humbly, the rev. vernon.

1 more thing i hate today. people that do not compromise. when people upset you, or hurt you, you should get over it at some point. unless the offense is like they killed your mother/dad or they have cut off your arm or leg. they upset you or hurt you in the past. that is why it is called the past. it happened in the past, now get over it. again i remain humbly, the rev. vernon.

well here i sit in my underwear drinking beer and watching ncaa basketball. it truly is the demise of the american way. today on the news i heard that the FDA is going to be instituting a drug safety committee. is that an oxymoron or is it me? then the other highlight of tonight's visit from dan is that there are golf carts being made to look like real cars. and they cost in to the 20,000's dollar. is that not absurd or what. again is it me. ??? people that own them do not even play golf, they ride around in their gated community and claim to speak for the older people in this country. that is just fuckin amazin.

as for me. well i mentioned my mood in the first line. only thing missing from my nite is a box o chocolate. lol.

well i am still here and still disgusted at the way america is moving into the future. well that is just this reporter's insight. much peace and love to all. rev. vernon. i think i will have another beer

well i am back for now. it has been 2 weeks since my last confession. no i am sorry i am not talking to a priest. silly me. life has been going on. no women in scene yet. and i am working a lot. i selling about 2 or 3 roofs a week. and that is sweet money. i am also on the road a lot getting permits for the roofs. i just got done with flag football and now trying to get onto a softball team.. will be hanging out at the field looking for a team to get on. my health that is another issue. i have now been off therapy since the first of november. although my viral load has only got up to 6100 but my tcells have dropped to 261. that is down from 385. so i am happy about that. i see doc this week. will report in with that visit. still going out dancing. voted myself best male dancer in bradenton. lol. having some fun these days. still working out at the Y. and i did finally ask this cashier out at the permitting office. she is dating some one at the time. bummer. but this too shall work out. gtg for now. all of you all are in my thoughts. life is getting somewhat easier, but i still miss the zoester. well hello 1 0 in that frigid cold north. love you all. rev.vernon.

back from louisville. and it was a good trip. got to see zoe's stone at least 3 days while i was there. that is a big comfort for me. and me a one ho had a great time together. it was hard to leave her. but i had to get back to work and sell some more roofs this week. which i have been doing. today i was 2 out of 3 in sales. meaning 2 went my way. tomorrow i have 3 more appointments. yippeee. then tomorrow i am actually meeting some one out at the club. and it happens to be a lady. even more yippeee. we are meeting at 10pm to do some more dancing. i am looking forward to it. hopefully she will be there.

as for my health. who knows. i did give blood last month. i have not gotten the results yet. i might get some this week at my counselor. i see her tomorrow as well. i have been trying to not live by my numbers down here in florida. up north i lived and died by them. but i am trying to be more relaxed down here about them. i look fabulous and i feel fabulous. so the hell with what the numbers say.

well peace and love to all. rev. vernon.