dialogue to self about meds and life, i am HIV positive with Hep C

Tuesday, April 26, 2005

dear miss 1 HO. please marry me. maybe 1 day???????? please ..? soon to be the owner of a growing roofing biz in west central florida......miquel gomez
i've watched the children come and go....and by




i will try to sing a happy song, i will to make a happy game to play...


come and tell me what it is like to go outside,.... i have never been and i am not supposed like thiss.....but it is okaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyy


rev.vern.

Monday, April 25, 2005

well hello world. i am back with broken small finger and all. i am having to put the splint on after i shower. makes life interesting to say the least. trying not to use it much. lol. it has been little under 1 week and i have to keep it on for 4 weeks. ugh. the penalty for playing hard. i did recently get a new pc desk and also kitchen table. they both kinda match by being with glass top and like off grey base metal on both of them. still getting used to the fact that if i like something, i do not need to get approval of any one to bring it home. lol. i am off to new orleans this week. yippee. ican not wait. my sis and i are leaving this thursday thru monday. we are going for the jazz fest, but may only see that 1 day. we are going to have a great time first. big dave matthews is playing this saturday why we are there. so i know we are going to see him.

well my finger it is a hurtin

much peace and love to all. rev. vernon.

Friday, April 22, 2005

well hello all. this week i saw my doctor and she told me that if and when we restart therapy it will be some totally different. so we will see. i hate to think of getting back on that chemo train with drugs. anyway also this week i got my finger x-rayed and sure enough it is broken. i have this splint that i wear all day and nite. supposed to be on for like 4 fuckin weeks. ugh. no one at home to help with the task of getting it back on after i shower. so i wont be showering for 4 weeks. lol. and next week we are off to new orleans. and that will be great. going to the jazz fest down there, or up there as i am in florida.

then i am going back in may for memorial day weekend. i am going with a group of hetero positive. and there is only 2 men going. me being one of the 2. like those odds.


well i spent 4 hours in the ER for my finger yesterday. it was kinda hard when i left there. it hit me like a ton of bricks, thinking about the hours me and zoe spent at the ER. it was a different experience for sure. when they ask who to call in case of an emergency, i say call a doctor. lol. then i have no one to tell them. but i put my sis shelly down for contact. she acquired an older son when i moved down here.

well peace and love to all. rev.vern.

Monday, April 18, 2005

tonite i saw green day with my niece. we had a great time and she met some hot boyz. lol. we had a good time over all. she even did sum crowd surfing, much to my shagrine. but we both survive. and then i got home and was able to open the line of comm. to miss 1 ho. i am so happy about that. i really fucked thangs up last week. i did.....enuf said. feeling that we can get thru this. invited a stranger to go with me to see Dave again in july. i will keep my fingers crossed about that. much peace and love to all. my little finger is fucked, so it hurts to type. i am doing alrite. it is hard to beleive that i was so low last year that i wanted to snuff myself out. glad that plan did not go thru. peace and love to all. miquel gomez.

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

went down to catch the sunset tonite. it was the first time this season to see it once the clock has been set back. so now i have time to come and have some dinner and then go to the beach. tonite it went behind some clouds on the far horizon. of course. then went into the office for about 2 hours or so. lots and lots of paperwork. buried in it.

well love to all. miquel gomez
well hello world. not much more happening here. 1 ho came and went. it was a rocky end to a wonderful week. it was just kinda hectic to say the least. we enjoyed each others' company. but nothing happening, romantically there.

i did get interviewed for a POZ article, but i mite end up on the editing floor. we will see about that. i sent the reporter a link to my blog, maybe i can still get my book published with the story of zoe. hoping to be some inspiration to others in life. i have been through hell the last 2 years, but i am almost at the end of the darkness. still some more work to do. with my anniversary for my suicide attempt coming up next month. i year out and i feel i am at a much better place than before.

i am still going to the gym and working out with the weights. as i mentioned before or not, i go the gym and make love to the weights. lol.

gtg for now. i will be back soon. i hope all is well where this finds you. much peace and love, rev. vernon.

Thursday, April 07, 2005

well where to begin with. i have been off of here for some time. i am doing well. i am working hard. and the big news, well let me see. my friend 1 ho came in town. she is actually still here. yippee. i will finally have a lady to take to lady nights on thursday night. if i can talk her into going. then i am off to new orleans this month for the jazz fest. and dave mathews will be playing that saturday night. fabulous. then i got tickets for green day next monday on the 18th and i got my ticket foir U2 in novmeber and also got tickets to dave matthews in tampa. i am going to be busy. planning on going back to new orleans next month with this group from miami. a hetero group has it's retreat in new orleans. so i signed up to go. i can not wait. going this month with my sister. and that too will be fun.

selling some roofs, but never enough.

then i get to be interviewed in POZ tomorrow for an upcoming article about treatment interruptions. soon be starting my autobiography. lol.

stay tuned. i promise to be back here soon. not going to make it back to louisville for derby this year. maybe next year.

well peace and love to all. rev. vernon.