dialogue to self about meds and life, i am HIV positive with Hep C

Sunday, August 28, 2005

well not much happening here. i wanted to let you all know that i am doing better. i am like they say, getting stronger with each passing day. for some reason or another, i was kinda blue last week. not sure why. besides i hate the month of august. i got sick in august of 94. so this month always has sucked.

as for other news. well i have been on the yahoo singles, off and on since january. with little success. and i have had like 4 or5 russian women contact me. now it always got down to me asking them, if they are serious about coming to america. and then i ask if they need money. i am no dummy and would never send any money over there. well the latest young lady who has contacted me is also very pretty like they all have been. i always picture some hairyfat russian man on the other end. well like i said this latest is very nice looking. and she even called the house on friday. kind of blew me away. i got home to that message on friday. kind of made my day. this is one guy who would go for a russian mail order bride. not that i like the notion of going shopping for women like they are merchandise, i don't agree with that, but we met through the personals. so any way. i will keep everyone abreast of details.


much peace and love, capt. cos. xxx

Thursday, August 25, 2005

well i am back for another hurricane weekend. lol. i am doing not too bad. looking for some body who likes nascar and fatness. lol. my new little saying is pww. for pasty white women. pww. i know i am going to hell already. i say to myself in my head, another PWW. or NCWW. and that is nascar, christian, white woman. so i dont like those either. NCWW. when will i learn.

other than that. i am doing alright. wuz hoping that katrina would give us some business. but she looks like she will make landfall in the panhandle. again mikey loses. meaning i will have to work tomorrow. some folks were out tonight like they were in for a snow storm tomorrow and that work would be called off. like me. lol. no luck. just like the snow storms up north, this storm missed bradenton and will cause trouble elsewhere. such is life. i am home at least from another ladies nite and going to bed with katrina just off shore and looking to make landfall in the handle area. i hope it stays that way over nite.

much peace and love to all. capt. cosmos..

Monday, August 15, 2005

well hello world. i am off to the keys this weekend. yippeee.. things are not too bad. i am going down with the group that i went with to new orleans, so maybe keep your fingers crossed. i picked up some scuba gear this weekend, so i am going to be doing some diving, at least some snorkeling this weekend.


not much else is happening. we are slow at work...but life is good.

peace and love to all. capt. vernon.

Thursday, August 11, 2005

another thursday nite @ the club. i am sweating like i am in heat. nice dance nite. and i shot pool, not soo bad. i made it home by 1230am and ready for another day of selling roofs. i am off to the keys next week. i can not wait. i think, that 1 could lose themselves at the keys, at least that is what i hear.....first timer for me. me and bryan went down to key largo in 1991, but we only stayed 1 day. probably due to me with no money.. different story these days....here is hoping that i make it home with a mermaid. wouldn't that be nice for me....well peace and love to all....i am still rockin on thursday nite...hello sally @ uofl. hope you see this and smile. called you lately, but no answer. come on down on labor day weekend. we are having an orgy....lol. not really but i am going alone for the keys. no baggage....lol... still love ya, call me.... rev. vernon and capt. cosmos both signing off.

p/l

Monday, August 08, 2005

well i started this blog with the news that i was going to be on structured treatment interuption. well today marks the day that i am going to start taking drugs full time. that is my hiv drugs. starting with a new 1 today and there was no bad side effects, so far. i made it through the day. and not much else has changed. i am still working out at the gym...still eating dinner alone at home. lol. work is not too bad. my tcells at last count was 201 and my viral load is at 5432 or something like that. i saw the man doctor last time...not good. this doc does not know me and talks at me...not with me. i will never see him again...that is for sure. i just do not like him. then he cuts my sleep drugs in 1/2 for nigth sleep. he did not ask me how i am sleeping....no talk about it either. i was really upset about seeing a different doctor. i felt that they (the clinic) is fucking with my life that way. i do not like it...and will hopefully not see him again..


i have not heard from any one up north. especially miss 1 ho. she called once, but honestly i did not pick it up. i do not like confrontation and try to avoid all that shit. life is too short to stay angry or upset with any one person in this life.

well much peace and love to all who may read these pages....rev. vernon.