dialogue to self about meds and life, i am HIV positive with Hep C

Monday, September 26, 2005

happy monday to all. well it was a shitty weekend for football. at least on cardinal planet. it was a quite shitty that they did not even show up to play. they did not take south fl. serious. it was ugly.

well my new cheeks have gone down a little bit. it is still better than where i was. so i am looking forward to getting the other treatments. just wished you did not have to wait 6 weeks between treatments. but the time will go by quick enough.

got a lot on my calendar in the next couple of months. next month going to spend the weekend at treasure island. there is a gathering of positive people. with any luck i might even meet some one. lol.

then in november i will be in lousyville for zoe's anniversary. hard to believe she has been gone now for 2 years, or will be then. i still miss her, and i still spend a lot of time alone. but i am getting on with life. what else is there to do, right?

i have not talked to miss 1 ho in awhile either. she is having a rough time as of late. i do hope that she finds peace one day.

as for me, well i am doing alright. did the st. pete aids walk on saturday. it was nice to get out and meet some people. well my chicken is on the grill. gotta go. peace and love to all. capt. vernon.

Thursday, September 22, 2005

well i am back. i am sitting here getting ready for another thurday nite ladies nite at the distillery. i did see the doctor yesterday. my tcells only went up like 22 points. they are now at 223, but my viral load went undetectable and that is only after3 weeks of being back on treatment. i saw a different doc yesterday. what is that like 3 docs in 3 months. not good. but yesterday this was another lady doc, so that was ok. you know me and the lady docs get along much better. or something. my hep c viral load is still undetectable. and that has been since may 7, 2001 since i last had my interferon in me. so that virus is no doubt gone from my system. only about 40 % of hivers with hep c are able to clear the virus from thier system. 1 of the lucky ones, i guess. it is nice to know. my first doc down here would not draw that test, she would say, "well we are not going to treat it, if it comes back positive". so i had another doc draw for that test. i will my doc in KY know about this test. yippee.

on other news...well get this....i had my first injection in my cheeks this week. i had some plastic surgery, you could say. there is this poly l lactic something that they inject into your cheeks, for people with sunken cheeks like me. it is called facial lipoatrophy. so i had this done on tuesday nite. you have to have like 2 to 4 treatment sessions, depending how bad your cheeks look. i am going to have 4 treatments. and you have to wait like 6 weeks between treatments. so mine will go into something like next march or so until i am done. but then the results last about 2 to 3 years. i am pysch. i almost don't look sick any more. the first treatment will not really hold, you might look good for like 4 days, but it goes back down. so i am expecting that. but if the end results look like me now...then look out world. again....something for me. i am trying to do things for myself in my new life down in florida.


well again i hope this finds every one doing well up north. i am going to plan on being in town for november 13th weekend. that would be zoe anniversary, so i think i need to be there this year. also there is this other person who is turning 40 up there and she would like for me to be in town. so i am going to recycle on my 40th bday crap. lol.

well much peace and love to all.capt. vernon.

Sunday, September 18, 2005

well i am back. been some time since i was on here. where to begin at. last week i was up in asheville, NC. helping my sis and bro in law move. they are moving up there for good next june. after the school year. i had a good time up there. ought to be a nice town for them. i look forward to visiting them there. lots of stuff to do. i went out for about 3 hours in the blue ridge mountains. did some hiking and drove on the blue ridge parkway. really really nice. then next summer will do some white water rafting up there. that ought to be fun.

you might be wondering what will happen to the business that i am working at. i may have mentioned this already, but he is going to put me in charge of running the business. yippee. they were going to sell it, and they still might, but there are more benefits for them, if they keep it up and running. which i hope i can do....i know i can. and there is going to be more money in it for me....again yippeee....

as for my health. well they have scheduled me again for another doctor. in the last 3 visits to the clinic i have seen 3 different doctors. irks the hell outta of me. but i do get my bloodwork back next time. i see a doctor this week, so i will get back on here and tell ya about the latest counts.


as for other news, well the country i am convinced is going to hell in a hand basket. there was this outrage about bush not responding to katrina and his crony that was in charge of FEMA. well that bonehead got there when the confirmation committee accepted bush's nominee. they all voted for him. so congress should be somewhat to blame as well. george w does not know how to govern and the rest of the country put him in there for another 4 years. GOD is there no common sense in the frickin country any more. we need a regime change here at home. please help the red cross or any other charity for the folks in gulf area.


well enough from me. i was glad i got to see new orleans this year. i plan on going back next spring for the jazz fest, if they have it.

i have been quite busy this summer. lets see i went to new orleans, twice in may, in lousyville in july and then the keys in august and now asheville in september. i have decided to go back to lousyville for a visit. i will be up there for zoe's anniversary in november. stay tuned...


well much peace and love to all out there..today i am hosting a positive connection day out for socializing. we are going to be bowling. my idea. will let you all know how it turns out.

for now peace out....rev. vernon.
well i am back. been some time since i was on here. where to begin at. last week i was up in asheville, NC. helping my sis and bro in law move. they are moving up there for good next june. after the school year. i had a good time up there. ought to be a nice town for them. i look forward to visiting them there. lots of stuff to do. i went out for about 3 hours in the blue ridge mountains. did some hiking and drove on the blue ridge parkway. really really nice. then next summer will do some white water rafting up there. that ought to be fun.

you might be wondering what will happen to the business that i am working at. i may have mentioned this already, but he is going to put me in charge of running the business. yippee. they were going to sell it, and they still might, but there are more benefits for them, if they keep it up and running. which i hope i can do....i know i can. and there is going to be more money in it for me....again yippeee....

as for my health. well they have scheduled me again for another doctor. in the last 3 visits to the clinic i have seen 3 different doctors. irks the hell outta of me. but i do get my bloodwork back next time. i see a doctor this week, so i will get back on here and tell ya about the latest counts.


as for other news, well the country i am convinced is going to hell in a hand basket. there was this outrage about bush not responding to katrina and his crony that was in charge of FEMA. well that bonehead got there when the confirmation committee accepted bush's nominee. they all voted for him. so congress should be somewhat to blame as well. george w does not know how to govern and the rest of the country put him in there for another 4 years. GOD is there no common sense in the frickin country any more. we need a regime change here at home. please help the red cross or any other charity for the folks in gulf area.


well enough from me. i was glad i got to see new orleans this year. i plan on going back next spring for the jazz fest, if they have it.

i have been quite busy this summer. lets see i went to new orleans, twice in may, in lousyville in july and then the keys in august and now asheville in september. i have decided to go back to lousyville for a visit. i will be up there for zoe's anniversary in november. stay tuned...


well much peace and love to all out there..today i am hosting a positive connection day out for socializing. we are going to be bowling. my idea. will let you all know how it turns out.

for now peace out....rev. vernon.