it is 6 days before xmas and i had a doctor visit today. so i thought i would report in.. also have some shit to get off my chest i guess. well my tcells are up to 400. only because i stayed on meds until i they took my blood. i can play thier games as well. only that this game is about my life. 2 people, staff members told me today that i wuz killing myself with this 1 week on and 1 week off shit. they both kind of laugh in my face. one of these was my doc. really now. i was adviced to do this by the great doc. H in louisville ky and i truly believe it works and has since this blog as started. so go figure. there is always an outlier in all studies. that outlier is now myself. thank you very much. i feel fine and my CBC is all in the normal range. so go figure. even my liver numbers are in the normal range. i want to thank Eve Prang for her support at her HEALTHY PWA PROGRAM out of MCC in sarasota. this program, i can not say enough about it has put me into high gear of great health. that is no shit. i feel great except for the small headaches i get with the therapy. one more reason to not take it for a week.

well i am still alone. my friend in south florida, miss s. dont think she is coming up here for new year eve. well well. it has been now 5 new years eve with out my best friend wife, my zoester. and i thought i might have some company this year, but no luck. miss s. stopped taking my calls or even calling me back. what is up with that shit. you look at me and think that i have no problem finding some women or so. well it is in my head about this hiv shit. i am going to get this woman at the gym. or at least i hope. she is another miss j though. she is hot.

for this year i am giving out zoe's book to friend down here in florida. they are getting a little piece of me and zoe. i am sharing more and more of myself. and that is a good thing.

even though i have not spoken to my roommate in 2 weeks. i dont think that is a good thing. but who knows.

stay tuned on that front.

i have been on 2 roofs this week and might be on more later. i am slowing being trained to put on roofs. i have installed 2 this week, like i mentioned and will be putting on more in the future. who would have thunk it. little ole me installing roofs and working with power tools. i can even drive a fork lift now.

well much love to all who read these words. and merry christmas or happy hannauka and happy new year to all.

capt vern.

xxxoooo

hello world. how are things going for everyone out there.? i hope find the holidays are upon us. yippee. this makes my 5th xmas with out zoe. it kind of got to me last night. she passed on some of courage to me. last nite while at the bar, i was sitting there and some one said that magic had to be gay, due to the fact that it is impossible for hiv to be transmitted from woman to man. i bit my lip for about 3 minutes and then spoke up. you are looking at a male who that very thing happened to him. they were like stun for a moment. people usually dont go around discussing this disease. in the state of florida you have to test pos first to get into the clinic and others services, so i have my card in my wallet at all times. i told them about how to and how not to get infected.. i told them a little bit about me and zoe's life together. i have one of the small pics in my wallet of the three of us. so i showed them that. i look great and flashed my biceps and said that. i strive to take good care of myself. i am running on days that i am not lifting. so i am the gym every day. anyway. i hope that they see me in another light now. who knows what they are thinking or were thinking last nite. i pretty much told the whole bar, but there was only like 5 people there. i would have felt like a coward if i did not mention something. i like to put a face on this disease. sooner or later, i think i will be in the newspapers down here as well. still educating people into this century. so i had zoe on my mind a lot last night. after meeting her, you knew she was positive within the first 5 minutes of meeting her. she was that way. i just dont want to be seen only by my disease. but as someone that has overcome this disease. i told them that people are still dying and that it is not cured yet. and until that time it is people like myself that should help keep the public's mind on this disease.

well much peace and love to all who may read these words. i see doc next wednesday so i will report in to tell you all my numbers. stay tuned. i am looking for a high tcell # since i stayed on meds for 2 weeks to give blood.

peace and merry christmas.

this country needs to elect a democrat next year and do more for global warming. more on that on a later blog.

captcosmos

well i am back. where to begin at. i went on the poz cruise and had a great time. did i find my next mate....well no not exactly. so it was a bomb in that regard. maybe i should have not put so much into it. that is why it took me so long to get back on here to report my findings. lol.


like i said, i had a great time and intend on going next year, if my high reuinion is not that same weekend.

we set sail out of miami and headed toward grand cayman. we had a day at sea, and we all got drunk. lol. my close friends who went with me actually got engaged monday nite. first at sea. so we had to get up early for snorkeling and shore excursion in the caymans on that tuesday. well the waves were too high for the tenders to get us off the boat. so the port authority closed the port to everyone. so we got drunk again....lol. we were told this after getting ready by 715am to embark. i do not mean anything against the organizers of the cruise. they continue to do a great job. it was a weather thing and out of thier hands.

by the next day, i was like well land this boat some where, please so i can get my legs back. lol.

we headed towards honduras, where we into the rain forest to go up in the trees and glide through the canapy on cables hung about 60 to 80 feet high. there was about 13 different cables that you had to get on. some were like 500 feet apart and you could not see the tree you needed to land in. it was wild. then we took a walking tour of the gardens and areas where they have monkeys who like to climb on ya. again it was way cool.

then we went to belize and toured the ruins of the mayans. we toured an old temple and arena like area in that country. we were supposed to see this pyramid ruin, but the rain had washed out the road there, so that was canceled or curtailed. we still had a good time, except for a queasy tummy i got on the bus ride.

then we went to cozumel. and the only thing i needed to do there was to find carlos/charlies and get drunk. so we did...lol

in cozumel we had lunch and when they bought the tab out it was in pesos, but said $199.00. i was shocked and thought that the mexicans got this gringo...lol. i actually asked if they took plastic. being that i did not travel with that much cash. it was only $20 in usa green backs. thank god.

next year they are hoping to get enough people on board where there will be hetero/gay groups, or outing or get togethers. who knows. i am hoping to go next year and will hopefully have a nice crowd as this year. next year we get 5 ports of call...

www.positivecruise.com

i think that is the address.

again i did meet some one on the boat. and we had some good time.. but on land she is, i think, not interested in seeing me. can you image that. one of the best man on this goddamn planet. well her loss. and if she changes her mind, or makes a move, i will let you all know.


as for my health, i am doing fine. give blood in the a.m. so i will be back next month to give results. feeling fine and doing what i have to do to keep me healthy. still running and bike riding. and then the other day i am lifting weights. i am about to start curling 100lbs on my last set. that is the magical number that i have never been able to get near. so wish me luck. some of the local people i have met call me popeye. lol.

well much love to all. capt. cosmos

www.myspace.com/captcosmos

hello again world. well i am writing to you all today to say hello and that i am doing wonderful. i am one week away from a trip of a life time. i am scheduled to go on a cruise next sunday. my very first cruise. it is with a group of positive people across the nation. it is the 10th anniversary one and there is the largest group ever signed up to go. we set sail for cozumel, honduras, and belize. i can not wait. i am really hoping to meet a lady or ladies. lol. i am still single, but i have been going to the gym relentlessly to get ready for this cruise. i look great and feel great. i am truly ready to offer myself to some one. yes it is my time.

i feel great as well. i may have mentioned that. we are going to be gone from sunday to sunday. leave out of miami on the 28th of october. yipppee. got my suit pressed and my ties ready to go. got some new dance shoes that i need to break in, still. my wonderful mum bought me some new clothes. so that is good.

i can hardly keep any other thought in my head except for this cruise.

what else is happening.. well not much. we got some business last week, i met this handy man who lives in this mobile home park. we got 2 jobs out of him. he will be a good bird dog for me.

other than that we are off about 60% of roofs for this year. they will come back. and it should be this month.

will post some pics of my trip when i get back.

stay tuned. i send out love to all who may read these pages. captcosmos

so i am back. lets see where to begin at. well for starters it is only 40 days until the poz cruise. yippee. i am fired up about it.

as for other events in my life, i am doing well. saw doctor last week on the 10th of sept. i am doing great. my complete CBC is in the normal range. my tcells were actually up to 382. with still being on the 1 week rotation. it has been over 4 years since i have begun that. and i am still doing great.

went to lousyville since i was last on here. went for the labor day weekend. sorry there is a lot of people that i did not have time to see and i hope to see them soon. i could spend a week up there and not see all who i would like to see. i was in town for the first football game, but now with the uofk loss, the season does not hold such high hopes.

such is life.

my pc has been acting up. i think it is time to update. this was is only 5 years old. yikes. that is old in pc lingo. it is real sluggish. might add some ram, but who knows if that will help.

when i was in town i stayed saturday thru labor day in corydon, in. a very nice old friend of mine lives up there on a farm. so we hung out all weekend long. it was nice and relaxing to say the least.

other than that i am doing well. i like to stay busy. i work out at the gym, and on days i dont do the weights, i have been jogging about 3 miles at the gym. was joggin on the streets here, but got tired of inhaling the fumes.

other than that, work is slow. we have not roofs going on as of now. we are slowing getting into the day trading business, if you can beleive it. my sis has the brains of einstein when it comes to picking stocks. we are all learning new things every day. we should have been into it like 20 years ago. that would be nice. but no better time than the present as they say.

alright enough from me. i will try to be on here some what more frequently. i will try at least.

all is well and much peace and love to all who may read these words. capt. vernon

well it must be my monthly check in time here. missing my wife tonight and as of late. the more i am alone now, it does not make missing her any less. i do think about her daily, at some point. i wonder if that will remain in the years to come. i come across her pictures in the drawers still. no more tears, just pangs in my heart for her touch and smell and just to hold her again and tell her i love her.

also missing my brother these days. he would love me living in florida. i think he might have joined me down here. who knows. it could have been me that died in maybe a car accident and he could be living down here. but it is just me. my heart does ache. i keep busy and i am not on the couch or laying in bed crying for days. just get these moments during the day when i think of those 2 people in my life.

i want them to know that i love them and miss them.


on other news. i am still doing well. i paid off my cruise for this october. yippee. so i am going cruisin this fall. finally. my first one. it is a group of poz of people. i might even meet some one on the ship. i am kind of living for that moment. i will keep you all posted.

i am still at the gym and have now increased my running to 3 miles on the days between the gym. i am working on my cruise bod. lol. trying to get my belly down. that would be nice.

well wanted to vent my feelings on here.

much peace and love to all out there. capt. cosmos

hey i am back. meant to get on here sooner, just life goes on so fast these days. i went to see doc and told her finally that i am doing the 1 week on and 1 week off thing. it has been now 4 years of doing just that. she was none too happy. but my numbers are good. my viral load is undetectable, and tcells are at 342. about where they usually are with this method. i feel great and told her what ever i am doing it is working for me, right? then i told her that my doc up north suggested it and i have been doing it since june 12, 2003. the same year we loss zoe. i still miss her some days. anyway it was our anniversary, or would have been on the 18th of this month. nothing else new to report from the doctors. my numbers are all in the normal range. if there is such a thing. doc told me that normally one should take their drugs 100% of the time. but i told her that i am a little more educated than the average consumer in the hiv community. so she told me that she actually partook in one the trials looking at the STI way of being treated. structure treatment interuptions. well it is working for me that is all i know. and my genotype test came out last year that i am still open to all classes of drugs on the market.

in the mean time. last week i went to asheville, nc. to help my sister move items out of their house in the mountains. we had a good time in the mountains. got to take a hike on the blueridge parkway and then the next day we went white water rafting. it was like 5 miles down the french broad river. what a beautiful area of the world. you are at the bottom of this ravine, or at the bottom of these mountains. all you can see is green and then the blue skies. it was great. did not lose anybody on the journey. which is a good thing.

well on other news, please check out our website for the adherence corporation. yours truly is prez. we are a 501C looking for donations, if you can help. one of our missions is providing text messages to persons with illnesses, that need to take their meds on time. we send out those messages from a computer. it is automated. we are looking for donations so that we can grow our client list. if you can help, it would sure be appreciated. here is our address....

www.adherencecorp.com

check us out.

well much love and peace to all who may read these pages. captcosmos.

as for my brother. well it was his last time in the hospital. he went in on a friday night. i think his MAC flared up again. well on sunday he was done with everything. i think he came to this conclusion that he was done on saturday while in there. he had his sisters fly into town for him. i was already there, but tension was high between him and zoe. i see now that they fought for my attention. but that is another entry here. so he told his doctor that he was done and that he wanted to just go home and die. he went home on monday afternoon and he died in his sleep on thursday morning. it was october 13, 1994. he died peacefully at home. if we could all die that easy. he even walked to the bank on wednesday to with draw everything he had, so that my sisters would not have to wait for his death certificate to come out to get his money. he did not have that much, but he did have his wits about him to do that. he was bald then, from his chemo. his last times i saw him at home, he looked bad. i knew it was not long before we would lose him for good. i am not sure if he was scared, or not. knowing him i think not. he had lost his lover in feb of that year and did not see much in life. i think he would still be here, if only he had wanted to be. that is another matter. i know i love him and miss him to this day. i always think of him at march madness time. we loved watching the games together. man we had some fun.
that morning he died, i got the call from kim at about midnight that it was close. zoe did not want me to go over there. so she called again about 2am. and he was gone. so i went over there then. no matter what. i guess zoe was trying to protect me from what i might see.
i recall that day like it was yesterday, but plus 13 years, almost. i had been poz only for 3 weeks and now i was say bye to my brother, and he died from AIDS, which i had now. again i held it from my family for 2 years before telling them. i posted that on my last note here, i think.


as for life now. well i just went through the landmark education forum. i highly recommend it to all who may read these pages. work is slow, i am even thinking about putting apps into places around the house. i could use a second job, due to the fact that my roommate is not working. and he has been off now for like 2 weeks. and it is another end of the month. yippee

but that is all i have to say about that.

my health is good, i see doc next week, so i will be in touch here.

well much peace and love to all. capt.cos

well more about me and zoe in the time i seroconverted. i remember her standing in the living room and pretty could tell by the look on my face when i got home that day. this was before the newer meds available now. i remember we just held each other. so you can image what i went through 3 weeks later during kevin's funeral. it was not the highest point i have been in in my life. but i did overcome that time. since their son/brother had just died or was about to die, i did not tell the family about myself. i kept that to myself and zoe for another 2 years. i did not want the family to take out their anger on zoe for something that i was just as responsible for. so me and zoe went about our life as if it was normal. in the spring of 1995 we were asked to go on the rolando show in NY as a serodiscordant couple. but we were both positive then but we felt like we were used on the jerry springer show. i should say that zoe felt she was used for the show. i was not on the show, only in the audience. that is another story. so when the ro show called we thought what the hell. nice hotel at 53rd and lexington in Manhattan. we had a good time on that trip. then later that summer we went to hawaii to renew our vows with kevin's insurance money. zoe lived on the island for about 2 years in 1988 and 89. candice is born on the island. zoe pretty much showed me all the places she had once lived in her life. i intend to take ashes to those places so that she will always be in the neighborhood.

so it was in the late summer when zoe started to lose her mind. she was acting really weird, where we fought a lot and she even kicked me out at one point. she was very emotional. i know when or what woman isnt? but seriously she was seeing things that were not there and other odd behavior. everyone thought it was dimensia (sp) but we know that you do not come back from that. so i had to make the decision that zoe needed some one with her 24/7 and i had to go to work and make a living. we had 1 nursing home in louisville at that time that was set up to take AIDS patients. we all thought that zoe would not be coming back home from that visit. this was in november 1995. she came home in may of 1996. she saw her pysch and every time she saw him, he would increase her meds. this was one of the causes of her problems, we were to find this out about 2 months later. in the mean time candice was sent to her dad's place to live full time. again in november 1995. it went down like this...saturday candice's father arrived on a plane and then sunday took her back to seattle area...on tuesday i put zoe into a nursing home. in a span of 2 days, i lost the most important women in my life. again this was another low point as you can image. but again i prevailed.

so back to zoe. on dec 1, world aids day, i was able to take her in a wheel chair to the ceremonies they were having for the day. there was a lot of folks that saw her in the wheel chair and just started to cry.

well in january a month later, the nurses saw that zoe did not get this side effect med she should have been taking with her trilafon. after 2 weeks on the other med for trilafon, i was able to bring her home for weekend visits. even in april of 96 i was able to get candice and bring her back for a 2 week visit, i think. if my memory serves me correctly. then i can tell you that she came home for good in may 22, 1996. she was back home and instead of having demensia, i think she had a nervous breakdown and the dumbass pysch did not catch that. dr. H takes the blame for her not getting the side effect drug for trilafon, but her pysch should have known to mention it.

she had been in the home for 8 months and when she came back home it was very hard for her not to have her daughter. she went into to spending spree to fill that hole. that did not ever come to end until she left us. our house was full of stuff that she bought for candice and her and just for candice. she missed her daughter. but we did not think she would ever come home from the nursing home so we did what we had to do. i say we, but it was anything but we when it happened. it was me and only me.

so later that summer my mother came for a visit. the family knew what a helluva a guy i was just to stick it out her in the nursing home. it was not easy. when my mother came for a visit, it was like 2 years after my brother, or close and i had her on my turf, so i could tell her. i sent a letter to my sisters the day before she left, so they would get the news about the same time. when i told my mother that it had happened to me, she took it like i guessed she would. stoic. my mum is very stoic. but that is a good quality that i love about her.

so anyway. i read what i could about the disease now that i was infected. it was the time in the of the disease where the philosophy was to hit hard and hit early. so my family doc had some crixivan from a death of one of her patients. so i took it home and have been on drugs since then. my reg. hiv doc was like where did you get the crixivan. had i listened to her, my reg. hiv doc, i might not have been on them just yet. who knows. i trusted her when i started this blog about 1 week on and 1 week off. now i am looking at my fourth year with doing just that.

well i have rambled on enough for tonight. much love and peace to all who may read these words. goodnite. capt. cos.

the year was 1991 and aids has not really gotten into my life just yet. it had only brushed my life with the passing of a librarian friend. it was in december that my brother and i got the idea to surprise the family down in florida for christmas. and beleive you me, they were surprised when we showed up on thier door step a couple of days before christmas. never forget the look on my mother's face that morning.


well kevin and i were not the best of siblings growing up. i was unaware of him being gay. it was not until our adult life that we were best of friends. we lived next door to each other and were very close. i often cooked dinner for us when we both got home from work.

well as mentioned kevin and i were down in florida for xmas and we were out having some drinks and he looked me in the eye and told me that he was hiv positive. i will never forget my response "i do not want to bury you next to murnie". that was our grandmother and we recently buried her. i was in tears and went to the bathroom to collect myself. not very strong for him. he was going to tell the family over xmas, but no one knew just yet except me. this was right after magic came out about being positive. so kevin had a test done recently that showed him to be positive. he later told me that he tested pos first in 1989 or so and just wanted to forget about it at that time.

well we got back to louisville and i immediatelty went to the biggest provider of info about aids then and that was the young thing we soon called the world wide web. being on a university's campus gave me access to this knowledge base before it came to the masses. i knew this and knew that and wanted to tell kevin about all the things i had learned. i even had a list of questions with me one time when he told me i could go to the doctors office with him. little did i know then that that same doctor would be calling me and telling me i was positive in about 3 years. yes i knew things, but did not know how to truly protect myself.

anyway i ramble. it was then in fall of 1992 we went to the aids quilt in washington, d.c. to volunteer for the week and help set it up. in 1996 kevin had 2 pieces made for him. on that trip he mentioned that he invited a girl name Zoe to go with us. he warned zoe that his little brother is a dog, so be careful. she did not make that trip, but we met for the first time on world aids day of 1992. i was not aware of this at the time, but i had issues with kevin. being that my dad died when i was 17, i was looking to make kevin, my older brother happy with my choice in women. up to that point, most of my girlfriends and him argued. so it was there that i let myself fall in love with zoe. we met officially on march 20, 1993.

but back to kevin. his first big illness was cmv in april 1994. he went and got a port put in. he hated hospitals, but then who does. it was lymphoma the next month. he had an absess on his behind. he showed this to zoe, but knew that i would not want to see it, and never did.

he then got MAC in august of 1994. the same month that i seroconverted.

but again i ramble on. i could see, but did not want to see it that kevin was done with it all. he had lost his close lover stephen in feb. 1994. he slowly lost his will to live with that happened. stephen babysitted for me and zoe on a tuesday night, i was playing darts at a local pub on tuesday night. he was rolling around on the floor with candice when we got home. stephen was dead the following sunday night. it was that sudden.

when me and zoe hooked up in march of 1993, we were what is known as a serodiscordant couple. another label from this labeling society we live in. it was in july that we were asked about doing an article for the louisville paper, courier journal about aids and being in love. we were on the front page on a sunday a.m. edition. if you met zoe, you knew she was positive about 5 minutes later. she told everyone that would listen to her story. just one of many reasons why it was easy to love her. and i do miss her. so in that article i was asked or quoted as saying that some one in my family was positive as well. well kevin felt like he was outed then. and in fact i had an uncle in chicago that was positive. the article did not do me and kevin any good with our relationship. it really soured it. to say the least. we later made up, or he forgave me and then he could not be stopped. even being photographed for the 1994 aids walk corporate donor brochure. this was in his last year.

i found out about my status 3 weeks before he died. his old doctor called me on the phone and told me while i was at work. i had gotten sick for the entire month of august. and did not even think it was hiv, when i knew zoe was positive at the time. when we met, zoe and kevin were friends, so i knew he would have to like her, if we dated. anyway. that is for another blog. lol.

i lost my brother in october 13, 1994. my best friend and brother is missed to this day.

then i lost my wife zoe in november 13, 2003. we had some fun times together.

well i have written more than most tonight. and i dont think i finished it yet, but for tonight i am finished. thanks for reading.

much peace and love to all who may read these words. captcosmos.

wow time does fly when you are having fun. well since i last my transmission...what have i been up to....

well last night i actually had a date. first one in 2 years, but no complaints here. she was not my type or i was not her type would be a better assessment of it. oohwell life does go on. i am doing well. feeling wonderful and even give blood this week on thursday. so i will have a blood work note here soon. i probably see doc at the end of may or so...stay tuned..

anyway this chick last night was poz as well. i think she wanted or would like a biker dude, which i am no way near that.

also last weekend i went through the landmark education forum. it is a life changin seminar and i highly recommend the whole world do this seminar one weekend. the sooner the better. it transforms your way of thinking about life. like dont sweat the small stuff. it was nice. hoping to get a date out of that also. lol.

won the derby pot at the party i was at. my sis always throws a huge derby party. and this year was no exception. we a had a grand time.

the landmark can be found on it's website at www.landmarkeducation.com

look in it. do me and yourself a favor.

working a little for the roofing company. we are majorly slow this time of year. but rainy/hurricane season starts in 3 weeks. look out.

well i am doing well if not fanastic. wishing everyone out there much peace and love your way. rev. vernon.

hey there world. again another monday night and i went to the doctor today. got an excellent report. my tcells went up to 359, from 329, i think. also my viral load is undetectable, still. like that. i am still doing the 1 week on/1 week off. i did not tell doc that today. she was like what ever you are doing, keep doing it. i feel great and look great. lol. my platelets are up to like 175,000 and she thinks my liver may be regenerating itself. which would be good news. i was going to say, i will drink to that. lol. but i did not. not like i am staying trashed all the time. i enjoy my beer on weekends, and some nights. and now with march madness almost here, well got to have some in the house, just for the occasion.

off to marathon key florida this wednesday. like the day after tomorrow. yes. ought to be fun. we are right on a canal down there. my roomy and i are meeting some peoples down there.
ought to be fun with spring break in gear and all. actually i am going to the beach here locally every weekend due to spring break being here. since i live in spring break territory. it is nice. lots of ladies, did i say there are lots of ladies down here this month and next. lol. they all need a little captcos to go home with. lol.


as for the adherence corporation. well i got some big news about that over the weekend. we are going to take on the epiletic patients. due to the fact that if they miss thier drugs, they could die. so we are teaming up with them this month. www.adherencecorp.com

we send out text messages to person who have a disease that they need to stay on top of their drugs. and keep them on schedule. so we have this PC based text messaging system that does it automatically. really cool. and we are about to get our first grant and we are growing more and more. we just became a 501c last year, and yours truly is president. lol. i am up for reelection this month. they have asked me to continue. so i guess i will.


well enough from me now. will be in touch more often, i think. at least i will report back after the keys.

hope you suckers up north are nice and warm. think about you all while i sip my mai tai...lol.

much peace and love to all. rev.vernon,

hi babbs!!!!

well it is monday night and i am doing alright. one more week to see the doctor and then i am off to the keys for a long 3 day holiday. my roomie and me are off to join some of my friends down there already. i am doing alright. i had lunch today with my cousin bryan. he was down here to get some things out of his mother's house. she died last august and she had a 2nd home in ft. myers. so we met up last friday night and again today. he is driving back today.

he is a photographer and i consider him to be my brother. we are really close. here is his website.... www.moberlyphotograhy.com check him out. he is a great person.

i am sitting here wondering if i should go out tonight or not. ummm.

i went to the gym yesterday so i am free tonight. nice. and i would go and see the sunset, but today is overcast and there was some fog that moved in this afternoon. so that is out of the question.

i should go and see a movie or so. need to get out of the house for sure for some time tonight.

i will check in next week to give you all my numbers from the doctor. then after that i will post some pics of my keys trip.

much love and peace to all who may read these letters.


i wuz going to start my editorial on this society that i live in, but i am no mood to get down. we eat too much, we do not care for our neighbors and this country is not in good hands when it comes to the government. everyone knows that. so i would just be repeating what others already have said.

maybe more in the future about that. but right now, i plan on just talkin about myself. which i do so well. lol.

well it is monday night and i am doing alright. one more week to see the doctor and then i am off to the keys for a long 3 day holiday. my roomie and me are off to join some of my friends down there already. i am doing alright. i had lunch today with my cousin bryan. he was down here to get some things out of his mother's house. she died last august and she had a 2nd home in ft. myers. so we met up last friday night and again today. he is driving back today.

he is a photographer and i consider him to be my brother. we are really close. here is his website.... www.moberlyphotograhy.com check him out. he is a great person.

i am sitting here wondering if i should go out tonight or not. ummm.

i went to the gym yesterday so i am free tonight. nice. and i would go and see the sunset, but today is overcast and there was some fog that moved in this afternoon. so that is out of the question.

i should go and see a movie or so. need to get out of the house for sure for some time tonight.

i will check in next week to give you all my numbers from the doctor. then after that i will post some pics of my keys trip.

much love and peace to all who may read these letters.


i wuz going to start my editorial on this society that i live in, but i am no mood to get down. we eat too much, we do not care for our neighbors and this country is not in good hands when it comes to the government. everyone knows that. so i would just be repeating what others already have said.

maybe more in the future about that. but right now, i plan on just talkin about myself. which i do so well. lol.

me before the World AIDS Day dinner Dec. 1, 2006.

it seems that i keep coming back to the blog after a 2 month hiatus. not much happening to report on here. still going to the gym. still taking my meds. saw doc in november and i think i gave a report at that time. went through the holidays, they were ok. my bday seems to be harder on me, than the holidays. in the area of missing zoe. i turned 42 last sunday. dont feel another year older, that is for sure.

have not been doing much of anything really. went out dancing a couple of times over the holidays. did have some fun. did not meet any body special though. so i am still single and not too much worried about it.

as for my thoughts on the war and other items of interest in the nation today. well the war is really pretty bad. not sure what the best move would be now. i have been reading a lot about it. just to understand the history of the region. i dont most americans care enough about that area of the world to educate themselves about it. but i am trying. and i think the current administration does not get the big picture. it is all about religion. and i am no expert there. i just know that it is not going as planned..

then we have the presidential hopefuls. i think that the dems ought to get their head out of thier asses and get some body on the ticket that is electable. i think i may be doing some work for the campaign of john edwards. i like him and i think he is electable. if we have a woman or a african american on the ticket, i just see the reps getting another term in the white house and that is not good for anybody.

well enough from me. you can see that there is really not much happening for me lately. i am doing well though. just nothing earth shattering to report on. weather is great down here. the winters, at least so far for me, have been like a good spring day in louisville. went to the beach last weekend and will spend some time there next weekend. going to marathon key in march for spring break. that should be some fun.

i see doc in the next month or so, so i will check back in then. much peace and love to all who may read these words. capt. vernon.