hey i am back kind of soon for me lately. well i wanted to vent about my date this past weekend. it went very well. we were together for like 5 or so hours. we went to dinner. and then just went to a bar to get to know each other better. she is another miss j with the same first name as last miss j. that is all i am going to say about that.

well then i went to drop her off and she asked me to come up for a drink. i thought, again there i go again putting thoughts into her head. well i told her no that i could not come up. with was late. but i did not want to have to drop the HIV bomb on the first date. so i said no. and i hope she did not take that wrong. i was in a major blah yesterday about her. i swore i would only date positive women in the future. which is not the best of view of life. it did a real major head fuck on me over the weekend with my pet virus. so i missed her at the gym on sunday. i did call her, only to get her voice mail. but she has not returned my call. who knows. i plan on attending her spin class tomorrow nite. at least i hope to. she is a real classy lady.

also this other miss j was going to call me on saturday evening. my hairdresser, but with a nother j name. any way. she did not call me. i was liked relieved almost. at least i did not have to worry about another date with a neggie. i am almost resigned to spend the rest of my life with my hand. and i dont like that thought. who knows what the future holds.

well anyway so monday afternoon who do you think knocked on my door. yes the hairdresser. she used to live in my complex only to move out in january, but she also moved out on her bf. so i told her to call me in about 2 months. she was with this guy for like 5 years. so i ended up inviting her in for a drink. some tea. we had a real nice chat and again i am putting myself in that damn situation again. so i am fixing her and her daughter dinner on friday night. yippee. she is more my style, at least close to my age and about a size 1 or 2. you know me. so i will have to cross that bridge if it comes up. hope to talk this miss j at the gym and tell her where i am coming from. she should understand, i am thinking.

well that was it. like i said, it has been a major weekend for my head case and my pet virus. i know i would like and still miss the touch of a woman. to know that again, at least one day is one thing that keeps me going in life.

i have some home work to do this week. first major assignment is due. and we see uofl play this week. they are playiing my school, usf. i am breaking out the red jeans again. love it. also will be seeing denny crum and darrell griffith there. yippee. i am going to be screaming this is for the football team. yeaaahhhhh.!!!!

any way much love and happiness to all. capt. vernon.

u2 3d here

hello world i guess it has been some time since i was last on here.

well i am back in school for one. i am in the grad. program at USF for a masters in library and information sciences. if i can cut it. my intellect has been in question as of late. only by me though. you know wondering if i have the brains to get through this class. let alone the whole program. we will see. we only meet 3 times this semester. so that is nice. it is all over the internet. you have to log onto the web about 3 or more times a week. not a problem here. since i have no life. i can get on most of the time or i am online most of the time at home. we have class discussions and we are to share an article that relates to this weeks topic. if we find one. i will keep this blog posted on how i do in there.

i got rid of my roommate. that was causing so much anxiety in my life. i felt like a battered woman. i never knew who my roommate was going to be when i got home. you see he drank a lot. yikes. that is an understatement. when you drink jaigermeister at 9am on saturday morning. you might have a problem. he would verbally abuse me a lot when he drank. so i just ignored him.. on new years day i gave him 30 days to get out. i should not have to live like that. so i came home on the 9th of january and he was gone. no note, no nothing. most of his things were gone. joy joy happy happy. so now i got the whole place to myself. it is nice and quiet. that is for sure. i might or should get a roommate. if i can last through january. more on this later.

also celebrated my 43rd bday on monday of this week. yippee. went out drinking by myself.. what fun that was. i was home by 930pm. not bad. i had a good time as i usually do with myself.

and r u ready for this news...!!!!! i have a date this saturday. if i can borrow some money to take her out. lol. not really i have this roof sold, so i should have some dough to take her out. it is with this lady who i met at the gym. we have been jogging together, only once, on the beach. and i just might go again this sunday, if things go well on saturday nite. this is my first neggie/poz date. she does not know my status. and wont, unless you know. things get down and dirty. but i am not planning on that. she might freak out, if i am true gentleman, like i have been known to be. i am not sure what to expect. it is exciting. to say the least. we are going to dinner and then bowling. lol. she bowls so i came across some free passes to bowl and i used that to ask her out. when i gave them to her, she was like well when we going out? this is the 2nd woman to ask me that in the last 2 weeks. no shit. i must be getting my grove back or something., for sure. lol. i will get back on here to report after this weekend.

well much love and peace to all who may read these words. i need to do some homework. just some reading. so thanks for listening to me. capt. vernon.