tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-54878892023-11-15T05:40:55.585-08:00on the web at long lastdialogue to self about meds and life, i am HIV positive with Hep CMichaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12146897219816871052noreply@blogger.comBlogger325125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5487889.post-84780715016665191872010-10-22T05:23:00.001-07:002010-10-22T05:24:18.945-07:00more to come today. sitting at work and not much happening with the phones so i have decided to get back on here and do some venting.Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12146897219816871052noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5487889.post-19777227353015394662010-10-22T05:22:00.000-07:002010-10-22T05:23:43.150-07:00hello there. i am back after about 2 years or so. i am still doing well. i have actually so much to write about i might get my fingers cramped up. i am married with 2 kids. both girls.Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12146897219816871052noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5487889.post-65808320729969704562008-01-21T17:01:00.000-08:002008-01-21T17:15:57.625-08:00hey i am back kind of soon for me lately. well i wanted to vent about my date this past weekend. it went very well. we were together for like 5 or so hours. we went to dinner. and then just went to a bar to get to know each other better. she is another miss j with the same first name as last miss j. that is all i am going to say about that. well then i went to drop her off and she asked Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12146897219816871052noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5487889.post-80589462258759731882008-01-17T10:52:00.001-08:002008-01-17T10:52:29.110-08:00u2 3d hereMichaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12146897219816871052noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5487889.post-12353100372733819372008-01-16T17:28:00.000-08:002008-01-16T17:53:47.253-08:00hello world i guess it has been some time since i was last on here. well i am back in school for one. i am in the grad. program at USF for a masters in library and information sciences. if i can cut it. my intellect has been in question as of late. only by me though. you know wondering if i have the brains to get through this class. let alone the whole program. we will see. we only meet 3 Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12146897219816871052noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5487889.post-35333701774378779922007-12-19T19:58:00.001-08:002007-12-19T20:11:13.117-08:00it is 6 days before xmas and i had a doctor visit today. so i thought i would report in.. also have some shit to get off my chest i guess. well my tcells are up to 400. only because i stayed on meds until i they took my blood. i can play thier games as well. only that this game is about my life. 2 people, staff members told me today that i wuz killing myself with this 1 week on and 1 Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12146897219816871052noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5487889.post-28613005703013390372007-12-14T19:00:00.000-08:002007-12-14T19:10:30.741-08:00hello world. how are things going for everyone out there.? i hope find the holidays are upon us. yippee. this makes my 5th xmas with out zoe. it kind of got to me last night. she passed on some of courage to me. last nite while at the bar, i was sitting there and some one said that magic had to be gay, due to the fact that it is impossible for hiv to be transmitted from woman to man. iMichaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12146897219816871052noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5487889.post-54769125172840983182007-11-28T18:23:00.000-08:002007-11-28T18:47:40.309-08:00well i am back. where to begin at. i went on the poz cruise and had a great time. did i find my next mate....well no not exactly. so it was a bomb in that regard. maybe i should have not put so much into it. that is why it took me so long to get back on here to report my findings. lol.like i said, i had a great time and intend on going next year, if my high reuinion is not that same Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12146897219816871052noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5487889.post-227791494724177272007-10-21T11:36:00.000-07:002007-10-21T11:43:39.632-07:00hello again world. well i am writing to you all today to say hello and that i am doing wonderful. i am one week away from a trip of a life time. i am scheduled to go on a cruise next sunday. my very first cruise. it is with a group of positive people across the nation. it is the 10th anniversary one and there is the largest group ever signed up to go. we set sail for cozumel, honduras, and Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12146897219816871052noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5487889.post-19502853673098186452007-09-18T18:08:00.000-07:002007-09-18T18:20:12.405-07:00so i am back. lets see where to begin at. well for starters it is only 40 days until the poz cruise. yippee. i am fired up about it. as for other events in my life, i am doing well. saw doctor last week on the 10th of sept. i am doing great. my complete CBC is in the normal range. my tcells were actually up to 382. with still being on the 1 week rotation. it has been over 4 years Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12146897219816871052noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5487889.post-21840386293020832132007-07-23T18:30:00.000-07:002007-07-23T18:37:16.896-07:00well it must be my monthly check in time here. missing my wife tonight and as of late. the more i am alone now, it does not make missing her any less. i do think about her daily, at some point. i wonder if that will remain in the years to come. i come across her pictures in the drawers still. no more tears, just pangs in my heart for her touch and smell and just to hold her again and Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12146897219816871052noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5487889.post-11319789289252738012007-06-25T18:00:00.000-07:002007-06-25T18:12:52.647-07:00hey i am back. meant to get on here sooner, just life goes on so fast these days. i went to see doc and told her finally that i am doing the 1 week on and 1 week off thing. it has been now 4 years of doing just that. she was none too happy. but my numbers are good. my viral load is undetectable, and tcells are at 342. about where they usually are with this method. i feel great and told Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12146897219816871052noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5487889.post-69461549041127214352007-05-30T17:53:00.000-07:002007-05-30T18:04:33.208-07:00as for my brother. well it was his last time in the hospital. he went in on a friday night. i think his MAC flared up again. well on sunday he was done with everything. i think he came to this conclusion that he was done on saturday while in there. he had his sisters fly into town for him. i was already there, but tension was high between him and zoe. i see now that they fought for my Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12146897219816871052noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5487889.post-71114866706594368072007-05-14T17:20:00.000-07:002007-05-14T19:16:22.420-07:00well more about me and zoe in the time i seroconverted. i remember her standing in the living room and pretty could tell by the look on my face when i got home that day. this was before the newer meds available now. i remember we just held each other. so you can image what i went through 3 weeks later during kevin's funeral. it was not the highest point i have been in in my life. but i did Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12146897219816871052noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5487889.post-79660568934730559282007-05-09T18:44:00.000-07:002007-05-09T19:10:40.075-07:00the year was 1991 and aids has not really gotten into my life just yet. it had only brushed my life with the passing of a librarian friend. it was in december that my brother and i got the idea to surprise the family down in florida for christmas. and beleive you me, they were surprised when we showed up on thier door step a couple of days before christmas. never forget the look on my Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12146897219816871052noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5487889.post-48197495701856708242007-05-07T18:03:00.000-07:002007-05-07T18:10:22.925-07:00wow time does fly when you are having fun. well since i last my transmission...what have i been up to....well last night i actually had a date. first one in 2 years, but no complaints here. she was not my type or i was not her type would be a better assessment of it. oohwell life does go on. i am doing well. feeling wonderful and even give blood this week on thursday. so i will have a Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12146897219816871052noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5487889.post-10596130878783541542007-03-05T17:54:00.000-08:002007-03-05T18:03:26.929-08:00hey there world. again another monday night and i went to the doctor today. got an excellent report. my tcells went up to 359, from 329, i think. also my viral load is undetectable, still. like that. i am still doing the 1 week on/1 week off. i did not tell doc that today. she was like what ever you are doing, keep doing it. i feel great and look great. lol. my platelets are up to Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12146897219816871052noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5487889.post-53530785512323243072007-02-26T14:37:00.001-08:002007-02-26T14:45:46.323-08:00well it is monday night and i am doing alright. one more week to see the doctor and then i am off to the keys for a long 3 day holiday. my roomie and me are off to join some of my friends down there already. i am doing alright. i had lunch today with my cousin bryan. he was down here to get some things out of his mother's house. she died last august and she had a 2nd home in ft. myers. so Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12146897219816871052noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5487889.post-26194025106333728352007-02-26T14:37:00.000-08:002007-02-26T14:45:44.476-08:00well it is monday night and i am doing alright. one more week to see the doctor and then i am off to the keys for a long 3 day holiday. my roomie and me are off to join some of my friends down there already. i am doing alright. i had lunch today with my cousin bryan. he was down here to get some things out of his mother's house. she died last august and she had a 2nd home in ft. myers. so Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12146897219816871052noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5487889.post-1169309365179556292007-01-20T08:08:00.000-08:002007-01-20T08:09:25.193-08:00 me before the World AIDS Day dinner Dec. 1, 2006.Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12146897219816871052noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5487889.post-1169309039988339212007-01-20T07:55:00.000-08:002007-01-20T08:04:00.003-08:00it seems that i keep coming back to the blog after a 2 month hiatus. not much happening to report on here. still going to the gym. still taking my meds. saw doc in november and i think i gave a report at that time. went through the holidays, they were ok. my bday seems to be harder on me, than the holidays. in the area of missing zoe. i turned 42 last sunday. dont feel another year Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12146897219816871052noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5487889.post-1164141125407740802006-11-21T12:19:00.000-08:002006-11-21T12:32:05.573-08:00so it has been about 3 months since i have been here. man time flies when you are having fun. well since august i have been doing nothing really special. been working as usual. also still going to the gym about 3 times a week. i also just started to work for the mote aquairium. they finally got a patient in the hospital this past week, so i was there for the first time last night. i was on Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12146897219816871052noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5487889.post-1156380241223630342006-08-23T17:38:00.000-07:002006-08-23T17:44:01.236-07:00wow did not realize that i have been off of here for so long. i am doing well. hope all is well with you. i went to see doc today and thought i would report in. all my CBC is in the normal range. can you believe it... my liver is doing great ast and alt both in great range. and my tcells went up like 100 points. i am still doing the 1 week on...and 1 week off with hiv therapy, but i Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12146897219816871052noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5487889.post-1154301334200716792006-07-30T16:10:00.000-07:002006-07-30T16:15:34.213-07:00hello again. i am just checking in. not much new here. been spending my weekends at the beach during the day and then on sunday i go to the drum circle. love is rough. lol.give blood this week and then see doc later in august. this being july 30. i got tickets to see dave real soon. it is a week from this wednesday. staying at the holiday inn on the fairground grounds. we can walk to Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12146897219816871052noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5487889.post-1152145305912549482006-07-05T17:12:00.000-07:002006-07-05T17:21:45.993-07:00well hello world. today being the day after the 4th of july it got me thinking of how terrible things are still in washington. the wrong president is in charge the house of reps, like the daily show says, is full of assholes. they again decided that the poor people of this nation needed a pay raise in the minimum wage. nooooo...but they were kind enough to give themselves a raise. how Michaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12146897219816871052noreply@blogger.com