well i made it to lousyville. and i am having so much fun. but it is bitter fuckin cold here. i need some palm trees now. lol. no time to do much except have some fun. flight in wuz even early. how good is that. well gtg. p/l to all. rev. vernon.

ok im back for a little bit. been driving miss ho wild. she can not wait until i get into town, me as well. hoping that it is a drier trip this time. maybe. i am looking forward to seeing the old stomping grounds again. again i will enter the city as a victorious king. that i am. lol. well i played my last football game tonite. i am now looking forward to softball in 2 weeks. they are doing a 7 man fball league. but these old bones can not do it. softball is so much less body contact. lol. then i have gotten some responses from american singles. the first lady i met, already sent me a dear mike letter. the very first lady i meet in person, in the flesh...and she sends me this note after 1 dinner date. her loss. too bad. well gtg. got some packin to do. love and peace to all. rev. vernon.

me again. i have been doing the american singles.com website. to no avail. i met 1 lady and 2 days later she gave me a dear john letter by email. what a laugh. after being on the internet for like 20 years or longer, being with the university and all. then there is this 1 hot senorita that put my messages on auto reject. that felt good. out of 90 emails i sent out. i have gotten like 3 good responses. and that is counting the one that sent me the dear j letter. well life does go on. i had dinner with the waitress friend of mine. and tonite she asks me to lunch. yummmy. she is yummy.. well i am off again. i will try to check in more often. life is swell. love and peace to all. rev. vernon.

hi 1 ho ...........luv ya. i do..!!!!

well it has been some time since i made an effort to log in here. sorry about that. i am doing much better, mentally that is. at least. i gave blood this week and that has been since october 26, 04. i have been off meds for that long as well. no HIV drugs that is. i curious to see what the results produce this week. i am also off to lousyville this week. flyin up for a 4 day weekend. i have been going out on weekends and dancing at the club in town. on other news fronts of mikeys' life. some have taken notice.

well off for now. gtg. peace and love to all. rev. vernon.

hello 1 ho....luv ya

well it is my big ole bday today. i am 40 today. and it was a doozy. i could not get zoe off my mind today. it was harder than xmas for some reason. she always went out of her way for my bday. no matter how poor we were. well then i am off to shellys house for the party. got my jaggermiester. so it will be a good evening. lol. i am also going into dunedin tomorrow for an art show. a certain lady is displaying her goods, in more ways than 1. lol. ooh nooo, i just realized that she is also would be a miss j. boohoo. but it is all good in the long run. she is also an artist. 2 whammy. anyway. new person, new reality. right. !!! no predisposed opinions about this 1. so gtg for now. rev. vern signing off. wonder if miss 1 ho is going out to dinner tonite w/pork? big shout out to miss 1 ho. who does not know yet, but i got my plane ticket today to go back to lousyville. c ya on the 27th of this month. yippeee. love and peace to all.

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WELL ME AGAIN. w/out shouting now. i will be 40 in less than an hour...ugh...!!!!!!!!!! but i had an awesome day in the roofing biz. 1 day mite have to tell about it. i am still doing alrite. missing my zoester. even as the bday fast slams down on me. ugh and lol. did not share with any one 2nite about my bday tomorrow. did get some jaiger for it. not even sure how to spell it. mite wake up with a shot. would that make a drunk or what. . ..... jaigger and an omlette for breakfast. lately i have missed zoe. like you would not know. it wuz not that bad over the holidays. i mean it never got crushingly bad. like it has the last 2 days or so. and again i can only attribute it to missing zoe. last year, again i was just getting over losing her. now it kind a like the bell was rung last year, but this year the refurbration of the bell is hitting the soul. and i mean deep soul matter. i miss her dearly. but she knows that, and hopefully would want me to get on with living my life. like again shawshank redemption.. .....getting busy living or get busy dying. i think i want to live, so here is to another 40 fuckin years on this earth. c ya....rev. vernon.

yyyoooooooo 1 ho!!!!!! ya listening???? go 2 www.americansingles.com and put in zip code of 34205 and c if i cum up!!! hope ya like the pics. lol. 1 shout out to 1 hoooooooooo!!! c-ya. peace and love to all on this eve of my 40st bday. goddamn. can i say that. 40st. ask my bro in law if i have to have a prostate test from now on annually. he told me only if i am lucky to have a nice tall blonde german nurse. lol. well 1 ho. this chickola did write me back from st. pete on the site of the month. lol. all the hags on there look old, or the young white chicks give me no reponse, or even the instant rejection with the NEVER ANSWER THIS ASSHOLE'S EMAIL IN THE FUTURE. NOT EVEN IN THE NEXT LIFE TIME.........PLEASE DEAR GOD GET THIS ASSHOLE OFF MY EMAIL ACCOUNT. LOL. AND THEY WONDER WHY SOME GUYS ARE SHY....ME. C YA

yyyoooooooo 1 ho!!!!!! ya listening???? go 2 www.americansingles.com and put in zip code of 34205 and c if i cum up!!! hope ya like the pics. lol. 1 shout out to 1 hoooooooooo!!! c-ya. peace and love to all on this eve of my 40st bday. goddamn. can i say that. 40st. ask my bro in law if i have to have a prostate test from now on annually. he told me only if i am lucky to have a nice tall blonde german nurse. lol. well 1 ho. this chickola did write me back from st. pete on the site of the month. lol. all the hags on there look old, or the young white chicks give me no reponse, or even the instant rejection with the NEVER ANSWER THIS ASSHOLE'S EMAIL IN THE FUTURE. NOT EVEN IN THE NEXT LIFE TIME.........PLEASE DEAR GOD GET THIS ASSHOLE OFF MY EMAIL ACCOUNT. LOL. AND THEY WONDER WHY SOME GUYS ARE SHY....ME. C YA

yyyoooooooo 1 ho!!!!!! ya listening???? go 2 www.americansingles.com and put in zip code of 34205 and c if i cum up!!! hope ya like the pics. lol. 1 shout out to 1 hoooooooooo!!! c-ya. peace and love to all on this eve of my 40st bday. goddamn. can i say that. 40st. ask my bro in law if i have to have a prostate test from now on annually. he told me only if i am lucky to have a nice tall blonde german nurse. lol. well 1 ho. this chickola did write me back from st. pete on the site of the month. lol. all the hags on there look old, or the young white chicks give me no reponse, or even the instant rejection with the NEVER ANSWER THIS ASSHOLE'S EMAIL IN THE FUTURE. NOT EVEN IN THE NEXT LIFE TIME.........PLEASE DEAR GOD GET THIS ASSHOLE OFF MY EMAIL ACCOUNT. LOL. AND THEY WONDER WHY SOME GUYS ARE SHY....ME. C YA

hello world. i have had pc problems over the holidays. but i got that fixed finally. and wanted to say hello. needed to say hello. well i survived another holiday period without zoe. it was better. i guess. there were ups and downs like we all have. but my heart is slowing mending. slowly. i am glad 04 is over with. now for 05. i turn 40 on the 14th. so look out world. almost ready for my AARP. lol. not really. maybe it is true what they say. life begins at 40...!!! stay tuned. love and peace to all who may read these pages. rev. vernon.

for some reason or so, i have grown bored with this concept. not really, just tired of bitching. home alone again for the 2000ths time. what else is new. last night i probably had the worse nite of flag football that i will ever live through. i was beaten, not once, not twice, but 3 times for a TD. it sucked. i am hoping to do better next week. this was the week that i said no one will score on me for the rest of this season. funny, that did not last long. lol.

not much else is new. did meet a young lady tonight at the grocery store. yes. i have seen this species before at the gym. but i actually introduced myself to her, and i was not drunk. it was after work, and those are the most soberest moments of the day. lol.

that was after i went and had my session with my counselor. it always kinda depresses me to talk about my doom and gloom with her. but i survived and do not see her until after the xmas.

and the life cycle goes on.

well signing off for now. maybe i will be back sooner than last time.

i am off all HIV drugs still. saw the doctor this week, but she did not take any blood. so who knows what the fuck my blood work is doing. DOH??? she is some what a bonehead. and it is hard for me to put my faith into her like that. but i am. and not living for the numbers, or that shit right now. kinda taken it easy with my HIV chit. so stay tuned. peace and love, rev. vernon.

well it has been 4 days since checking in. and last time i do not think that i mentioned that it is now official. i have my florida license plate. got in world aids day, dec 1. mine of course ran out in november from KY. i can now take my own plate and hang it on the wall.

i will no doubt be staying in florida. it is the best option for me right now. i feel. miss j, in case you are wondering moved back, well she moved back to lousyville. and has been back there for about 2 weeks or so. if not longer. i have little if any communication with her. life does go on.

i am kinda missing my zoe as well these days. she has been gone for a year and i still talk to her. you know there are these 3 sand herons that i see a lot by the office. and they are all the time, 3, only. so today i named them for our fallen heros in cavehill. zoe, kevin, and jerry. man i miss those kids. i guess it is the holidays and all.

not much else going on. still hanging in there like a hair in a biscuit.

much peace and love to all. vernon.

hello folks. nice sunday morning down south here. not much happening today. i am off to church, yes church. did you hear the thunder ??? i am off to church due to the fact that they are having a memorial service for persons lost to AIDS. due to the world AIDS day this week. i am also going to pray for myself. and to give me strength to go on. i am alright today. just a little lonely, as usual. i am also off to the drum circle today. i am doing my best to get out of the house and to meet others. i woke up this morning, to sunshine as usual down here. had some coffee. and talked to the cavehill gang. i sure do miss them all. i am trying to forgive myself for helping zoe transcend this world to the other. you know she wanted to die at home. i just wished we had talked about it more. i know she is in a better place now. i am just hoping that the guilt i feel will lessen as the days go on.

i am still off hiv drugs and hope i am doing alright.

i started playing flag football this week and think i brusied my collar bone or something in my shoulder. maybe i am too old to play this rough sport. but i am getting out of the house and meeting people this way. and i am still going to the gym and think i have a softball team to play on this coming february. met this guy at the gym and his team needs a shortstop, which i play. and softball should be easier on my bones. lol.

well gotta go. life is getting better, or the burden that i carry is getting easier to carry.

much love and peace to all. rev. vernon.

hello folks. nice sunday morning down south here. not much happening today. i am off to church, yes church. did you hear the thunder ??? i am off to church due to the fact that they are having a memorial service for persons lost to AIDS. due to the world AIDS day this week. i am also going to pray for myself. and to give me strength to go on. i am alright today. just a little lonely, as usual. i am also off to the drum circle today. i am doing my best to get out of the house and to meet others. i woke up this morning, to sunshine as usual down here. had some coffee. and talked to the cavehill gang. i sure do miss them all. i am trying to forgive myself for helping zoe transcend this world to the other. you know she wanted to die at home. i just wished we had talked about it more. i know she is in a better place now. i am just hoping that the guilt i feel will lessen as the days go on.

i am still off hiv drugs and hope i am doing alright.

i started playing flag football this week and think i brusied my collar bone or something in my shoulder. maybe i am too old to play this rough sport. but i am getting out of the house and meeting people this way. and i am still going to the gym and think i have a softball team to play on this coming february. met this guy at the gym and his team needs a shortstop, which i play. and softball should be easier on my bones. lol.

well gotta go. life is getting better, or the burden that i carry is getting easier to carry.

much love and peace to all. rev. vernon.

well today is sunday and that means a drum circle on seista key. i will be leaving here in about 2 hours. not much else is happening. not sure if i mentioned this last time or not. but i have been taken off hiv drugs due to the buildup of lactic acid in my blood. it can be fatal, but we caught it in time now. so i am off drugs for 6 months or until my blood dictates it time to get back onto therapy. my count was 20 when over 15 is 60% fatal. so i am doing well. in that regards.

i start playing football next week. it is a 4 on 4 flag football league. see if these old legs can still rumble. lol. we will see.

last wednesday nite, night before thanksgiving, i shot my ass off in pool. i could not be touched. i held the table for like 2 1/2 hours. i only lost 1 game during that time. cool.

well i am off to shower after the gym. hope all is well. peace and love to all. rev. vernon.

yes it has been some time since i have been on here. well i have made it through the 1st year without zoe. and i find myself still missing her. the book i am reading it mentioned that when you lose some one, it is also giving up that habit of that person in your life. so you have to give up that habit as well. well it has been hard to break that habit.

as for me. well i recently started playing on a 4 on 4 person flag football. so i am getting out of the house some more now. we practice on monday nite and then again on saturday a.m. the season starts on dec 1, world aids day. so i wont make it to any of the local remembrances of the day. i mite, we will have to see. there is this one lady that is in the local scene. we she looks just like zoe, if that is not bad enough. she is positive as well. so i have been trying to see her, anywhere i can.

as for now. well i am ok. about to burn dinner.

found out last week that miss j moved back up north. so that is definetly over with. what a bummer. as long as she was in town, i always held out hope. so now there is no hope. and i must go on life. i am doing just that.

well peace and love, rev. vernon.

i will be back here soon. i promise.

hello world. long time no talk to.... i am doing alright i guess. been now 1 year with out zoe this past saturday. the last couple of days is has been on my mind. as you might guess. it may just be me, but i am getting on with life. i just started to practice with a 4 on 4 flag football team. we start on dec 1. world aids day. ia m going to be sore tomorrow. i can tell. it has been like 6 years or so, since i played any regular sports. so these old bones will take some getting used to running again.

i went to put some ashes on another beach this past weekend. in honor of zoe. it was a beach we went to often. if she was not at the sponge docks. or i would drop her off at the sponge docks and go to howard beach. i intend to put some out the local beach as well.

i still miss her. hard to believe it has been 1 year already....it has been one hell of a long year, it seems. then it seems like yesterday i was trying to get her upstairs to bed. and then the last nites we spent on the living room floor with her... she was in her hospital bed. i have not thought of that moment for some time now. whews....

then i went to see norah jones last week. another show she would have liked to be at. going to RENT tomorrow nite. should be excellent. as always. but again i take her spirit with me. i love you all. and you too honey.... rev. vernon.

monday nite and not too much going on. i worked today most of it, kinda. then went to the gym and home to dinner. tonite's menu consisted of chicken thighs on gril, with flavored noodles and corn on the cob for 1. this is the week of big events.

the first being that is is zoe's 1 year anniversary. hard to believe it has been 1 year. then at times it seems like this has been 1 long ass year. it has not been 1 of my favorites. that is for sure. but i am coping and going on with life. i think zoe would have want it to be so. i still talk to her. mostly in the car. and then there are times i look up to talk to her. i miss her dearly at times. it is mostly music that sparks my memory. and with that, the 2nd event takes place this week. my sis and i see norah jones this friday nite. so the events take place in reverse order. but it is still going to be one of helluva week. it has been on my mind heavily that is for sure. i have a special 1 oh putting flowers on her grave for me. thank god. there are some times that i think that i abandon louisville, or abandon her, and her grave site. now i wonder if any body visits her. i hope they do honey....and i am thinking of you often.

peace and love, reverend watery eyes....

well i am still here. i have not had much to say on the happy side, so i have not been on here for awhile. i have been busy with the kerry campaign. doing some work for the PAC moveon.org. i am a precinct leader and doing a lot of canvassing, trying to get the kerry vote out. we need to send bush back to texas. please america, hear me now!!!!!

well not much else happening. i actually have a blind date tonight. and i have never been on one of those before. so it should be interesting. we are meeting at a nice place on the water. stay tuned. i will let you all know how it goes. i am not putting too much stock into though. dont want to be let down if it turns out to be a disaster. you know me and my attitude. lol. i am kinda nervous, since it has been years i have been on a real date. hopefully it will go swimmingly.

well and the weather down here is nice and sunny. it does not feel like october. i dont think i have been able to wear shorts in october before. surely does not feel like halloween time. this might take a couple of years to get used to that.

as for miss j, well she has moved on, and i do not know where she is in this city. no phone number or address for her. i am sure the family is happy about that, but i still had some little hope left in me for us. ugh. well onward and upward.....!!!

it will soon be 1 year with out zoe. can you beleive it. i miss her still. and i am still in counseling. so i am doing what i can to be healthy, or at least in my mind. but there are times when the song on the radio hits me and i break down and cry. i wonder if i should be with anybody these days? i know the loneliness is getting easier. i dont mind it as much. but it is still there.

well i am off. love you all. capt vernon.