well the capt has been found. i am doing alright. sorry i have not been on here for a very long time. i am currently staying at my sisters house and watching my niece. she is about to turn 18 in 2 weeks. so she don't need much watching. lol. her friends on the other hand....lol....

my counts as of late. well here they are on july 2 i gave blood, i think or that was the last time on the counts i saw. my tcells are 201, 1 above being AIDS classified. whoopy... my viral load is only at 5435. something like that. i have been off meds since last october, so i think that is a very good thing to have. i was kinda glad to see those numbers. i saw them while at my counselor appt. i also gave my counselor her walking papers. i told her that i can now see life with out her... and i am doing alright. if we are ever doing alright in this life.


i have been selling my ass off. this past week i sold this big ol commercial jobs. it was sweet. big pay day next week....i should get the girl...lol.

no one in my life at this point. i am going to the keys next month for a 4 day weekend. with the same group from new orleans. maybe not the same people, just the same ASO... i am also in the beginning stages of getting a chapter of that group established here in Tampa bay area. we are possitiveconnections.org Tampa bay area. we have social every month that includes doing a social in one of the 7 counties in this area.


well football is about to start. and that always bring this area to it's feet. and the cards are playing down here this september. they play USF on the 24th. yippeee. can not wait to be in that crowd with all RED on...lol. hopefully all predictions will come true for the cards in both football and basketball this year. it is an exciting time to be a cardinal fan. i am sure i would stay drunk most of the year, were i in town. makes missing lousyville that much better.

also bad time to be in the nasa business. as you mite be ab le to tell that i am a big space fan, from the name. i am sadden that the shuttle era is at en end. i was there in the beginning. remember that the launches were as exciting as the apollo launches. but it is, i feel, well past the time that we should have another plan. we need to continue to put man in space. and we will. i hope.. .... i would love to be launched into space. but my stomach would not handle it.

well i have yak enough for now. i hope to be on here again this week. i see the real doctor on tuesday and will have a better handle on what is happening to me. i mite or mite not begin meds again. stay tuned. much love and peace to all. rev. vern.

hello 1 ho. call me if you read this...i still love you and miss you...another heartbreak in lousyville...p/l

well it has been way too long since i have been on here. here is an update from the road. i just got back this past wednesday night from louisville. i took my niece there for her graduating high school. she graduated a year early due to her smartness. we had a good time. it is always good to be in louisville. did not get to see several people. there is just not enough time. i might be going back next month. who knows. i got all my shit out of storage and i continue to go through the huge pile of memories. i might have to put some in storage down here after all. i was trying to avoid doing that down here at least. life is not too bad. i had my moments and still do going through the pics mostly. i got all my big framed art on the wall. was not sure i had the room for it. but it worked out.


as for my health, well i am still not taking any meds. my doc took blood last month and i see her on 25th of this month. they did a genotype test on my virus and it turns out that my virus is still sensitve to all the meds on the market. my doc was a little shocked at this, since i have been doing what i have been since last october.

i feel fine and will have to change my ways soon when i start the meds. i am sure i will begin them again this month.

then i have a friend from POZ moving to gainesville next week. i might go up there for a night or so. i have never been to gainesville. it is the home of the gators, for those who did not know. also the cards play south florida down here this fall. like in 2 months or so. i can not wait for that. i see big dave again next thursday. i will enjoy that, of course.

well peace and love to all. rev. vernon.

well it has been like 2 weeks since i have been on here. not much is happening. i see doc next week on the 28th, still off meds...will see what she says next week. then i am off to lousyville next thursday to get my shit out of storage finally. i am taking my niece up there with me. we will have a great time. and see some of the fine folks that are still living there.

it is the rainy season down here and you can set your watch by it. also my friends are here from lousyville and we are off to deep sea fishing next week. i think. if i can stomach it. i am a major chummer when i get out on the water.

well today val was in the paper. she is way too beautiful. wish she would look my way. well i am not giving up. she was interviewed for HIV testing day. that day is on monday, so get the test and know your results. not much else is happening. i am making it down here and seem to be a little more at ease with living down here. i have my routine. i go to work then off to the gym and this being thursday that can only mean 1 thing. ladies night. so i will be going out tonight to do some dancing.

well much peace and love to all. rev. vernon.

i did not realize i have been off of here for about 2 weeks now. well not much to report on down here. i almost went back on therapy this week. but changed my mind to until i see my regular doctor. she has me giving blood this month and then seeing her next month, late. i got into the home delivery of meds for persons like me on disability. and they delivered them last night out of the blue. but they were prescribed by another doc i saw breifly when my voice was not working. i think i mentioned this or so. well i thought that i will continue to see my female doc. doc sue. i feel fine and did not want to start chemo at this point in time. so i am going to see what my blood says and see what she has to say. i my lactic acidosis levels were still a little elevated. something the male doc did not take into account, i think. they were at 14mm last time, but this time they went up to 16mm and that is off therapy. so i do not want to pollute my body just yet.

today i am off to meet with the local yahoo singles group. we are meeting to play some pool here. first time i have made contact with them, or met them out. nice day, kinda windy due to hurricane that was out in the gulf. we just got a lot of rain. good for the roofing business though.

other than that...my best of bestest friend is coming into town next weekend. so i will have some to hang out with. no way...how will i act....lol

well i can not wait, we will have some fun at seista key.

much peace and love to all out there. capt. vernon signing.

hey i am back from new orleans again. had a wonderful time and met some wonderful people. i hope to be life long friends of these people. they were really nice and it was another thing to be in company of people who are going through the same thing as me. i am so used to being the token hetero in a group setting. to be in a setting where everyone was positive and hetero. it was just really nice experience.

on the other hand. i am supposed to be starting therapy soon. but the delivery service told me today that they are just planning on submitting my application today. i thought for sure that they would have done that since i was away. i had the visit from the delivery person last week. and today i talked to him and he mentions that they are just today submitting my app. i just think that is more BS from the system down here in FL. stay tuned. i was tired last night and came home a day earlier than plan. but it was raining and nasty in new orleans for monday. and i went back to work today, so it is all good.

well peace and love to all. rev. vernon. captcosmos

night before new orleans again. i hope i behave myself. i am sure i will. i will be in mixed company, so i think i know how to handle myself. i am really looking forward to it. going to the art musuem first tomorrw. i get in too early to get into my room. i get in like 730am, but this is only at the airport.

anyway not too much else happening.

i think 1 ho is mad at me or so. i sent her a package and again i expressed my feelings.

no response.

peace and love to all. rev.vernon.

today i am writing with out the splint on my finger and it does not hurt that bad. real quick note to say or tell everyone that i got some blood work back tonite at my counselor appt. the geno type testing on my virus showed that my virus is still reactive to all types of meds on the market. i have been off therapy now since last october, 2004. and now it is may, or the bloodwork as dated may4, 2005. so that is good news. my virus is not a mutant. so far.

more blood results tomorrow. also see the finger doc. maybe he will tell me i am ok to take the splint off.

until then. peace and love to all. rev. vernon

me again. i am not getting ready to go out for ladies nite. so it must be thursday the 19th. next week i am off to see the hiv doc as well as the hand doc. hopefully i can take my splint. then i am going to new orleans again. this time for a 5 day weekend. lol.. love it.

i am not doing too bad. had some shingle leads this week, but no one signed. so oohwelll.


the weather down here is already hot like summer. they haved warned everyone about how gators are going matin this month, or starts it for the gators. so you mite see one whereever you are. lol. think about that miss 1 ho. lol. hey up there....

i see where the beatle party is this weekend i mean next weekend in lousyville. just when i move they bring in the beatles fair. well i will have to make the trip next year for it.

i am off to do some dancing again. maybe not too much. peace and love to all. rev. vernon.

1 week has past since my last post on here. what has been happening. well tomorrow nite i get to read my poem for zoe out loud to a group that is gathering for an AIDS poetry slam. i am kinda excited about it. will be interesting. my first open discussion down here about the A subject. i will let you all know how it goes.


as for me. well i still miss my girl. with the poem and all she has been on my mind. a lot lately, for some reason or naught.

and my finger is still broken, so typing is a drag. ....

did some betting over the weekend. i went to the track down here. what a world of difference from churchhill. for starters, the parking was FREE. dig it.

and i even won some races. only on the track up north, thou. i could not cash a ticket on the local track. nothing. but i had a good time. must be the angels up north that helped me get those horses. i went strictly with the name on them. and cashed a ticket all 3 races i was there.

then i am going back to new orleans for memorial day weekend.. going to be exciting. hopefully i will come back with my voice. lol. it is a bitch typing with my finger, ugh.

much pain.

well love and peace to all. rev. vernon.

xxxxoooo

i went to the doctor aboutmy voice, was hoping that it was not due to thrush or something. well it was a new doc, at least to me he was. and he took some blood and even did a genotype test on me. will let you all know what it comes back as.

he was concerned that i was not on meds right now. he said i should be back on them within a month, if not sooner.

well be good to each other. peace. rev. miquel.

still me. i am watching u2 concert from slane castle. so i need to get myself out of this stuck in a moment period. i am definelty going to watch my drinking when i go back to new orleans. i even got on 2 different stages to dance for the crowd. there was not a man in the place that could touch my moves. lol.

well i am off again. much peace and love to all out there. rev. miquel.

p.s. happy derby week.

made it back from new orleans. but my voice didn't. lol. you know that is a major sign of me having a good time. when i lose my voice. so i am not working much this week. trying to get it back. then when you do talk people ask me what? all the time. so i have to repeat myself.

well about the trip. we had a great time. saw dave matthews band in the rain again. have not seen dave with out the rain. well just my luck. we had fun anyway. spent like 100 dollars on rain gear, then it clears up. lol. truly.

well i am still nursing my little finger. not sure i mentioned it or not. but i broke it at the ultimate tournament. been like 2 weeks now.

i miss my zoe at new orleans. i was aware of her being gone. i almost felt guilty for having fun with out her. i am stuck in a moment as U2 would say.

i entered her poem into a poetry slam down here for AIDS and i am finalist. damn cool. going to keep her legacy going. i am going to take her book with her picture. hope i can make it through it. i think i can. since i gave a speech in her honor like 2 weeks after her funeral.


i have not seen my counselor again for like 3 weeks. i think i can tell. with my voice out and no one to talk too. not that they could hear me anyway, but i am almost a mute. my own isolated island. well better publish this before i lose it.

dear miss 1 HO. please marry me. maybe 1 day???????? please ..? soon to be the owner of a growing roofing biz in west central florida......miquel gomez

i've watched the children come and go....and by




i will try to sing a happy song, i will to make a happy game to play...


come and tell me what it is like to go outside,.... i have never been and i am not supposed like thiss.....but it is okaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyy


rev.vern.

well hello world. i am back with broken small finger and all. i am having to put the splint on after i shower. makes life interesting to say the least. trying not to use it much. lol. it has been little under 1 week and i have to keep it on for 4 weeks. ugh. the penalty for playing hard. i did recently get a new pc desk and also kitchen table. they both kinda match by being with glass top and like off grey base metal on both of them. still getting used to the fact that if i like something, i do not need to get approval of any one to bring it home. lol. i am off to new orleans this week. yippee. ican not wait. my sis and i are leaving this thursday thru monday. we are going for the jazz fest, but may only see that 1 day. we are going to have a great time first. big dave matthews is playing this saturday why we are there. so i know we are going to see him.

well my finger it is a hurtin

much peace and love to all. rev. vernon.

well hello all. this week i saw my doctor and she told me that if and when we restart therapy it will be some totally different. so we will see. i hate to think of getting back on that chemo train with drugs. anyway also this week i got my finger x-rayed and sure enough it is broken. i have this splint that i wear all day and nite. supposed to be on for like 4 fuckin weeks. ugh. no one at home to help with the task of getting it back on after i shower. so i wont be showering for 4 weeks. lol. and next week we are off to new orleans. and that will be great. going to the jazz fest down there, or up there as i am in florida.

then i am going back in may for memorial day weekend. i am going with a group of hetero positive. and there is only 2 men going. me being one of the 2. like those odds.


well i spent 4 hours in the ER for my finger yesterday. it was kinda hard when i left there. it hit me like a ton of bricks, thinking about the hours me and zoe spent at the ER. it was a different experience for sure. when they ask who to call in case of an emergency, i say call a doctor. lol. then i have no one to tell them. but i put my sis shelly down for contact. she acquired an older son when i moved down here.

well peace and love to all. rev.vern.

tonite i saw green day with my niece. we had a great time and she met some hot boyz. lol. we had a good time over all. she even did sum crowd surfing, much to my shagrine. but we both survive. and then i got home and was able to open the line of comm. to miss 1 ho. i am so happy about that. i really fucked thangs up last week. i did.....enuf said. feeling that we can get thru this. invited a stranger to go with me to see Dave again in july. i will keep my fingers crossed about that. much peace and love to all. my little finger is fucked, so it hurts to type. i am doing alrite. it is hard to beleive that i was so low last year that i wanted to snuff myself out. glad that plan did not go thru. peace and love to all. miquel gomez.

went down to catch the sunset tonite. it was the first time this season to see it once the clock has been set back. so now i have time to come and have some dinner and then go to the beach. tonite it went behind some clouds on the far horizon. of course. then went into the office for about 2 hours or so. lots and lots of paperwork. buried in it.

well love to all. miquel gomez

well hello world. not much more happening here. 1 ho came and went. it was a rocky end to a wonderful week. it was just kinda hectic to say the least. we enjoyed each others' company. but nothing happening, romantically there.

i did get interviewed for a POZ article, but i mite end up on the editing floor. we will see about that. i sent the reporter a link to my blog, maybe i can still get my book published with the story of zoe. hoping to be some inspiration to others in life. i have been through hell the last 2 years, but i am almost at the end of the darkness. still some more work to do. with my anniversary for my suicide attempt coming up next month. i year out and i feel i am at a much better place than before.

i am still going to the gym and working out with the weights. as i mentioned before or not, i go the gym and make love to the weights. lol.

gtg for now. i will be back soon. i hope all is well where this finds you. much peace and love, rev. vernon.

well where to begin with. i have been off of here for some time. i am doing well. i am working hard. and the big news, well let me see. my friend 1 ho came in town. she is actually still here. yippee. i will finally have a lady to take to lady nights on thursday night. if i can talk her into going. then i am off to new orleans this month for the jazz fest. and dave mathews will be playing that saturday night. fabulous. then i got tickets for green day next monday on the 18th and i got my ticket foir U2 in novmeber and also got tickets to dave matthews in tampa. i am going to be busy. planning on going back to new orleans next month with this group from miami. a hetero group has it's retreat in new orleans. so i signed up to go. i can not wait. going this month with my sister. and that too will be fun.

selling some roofs, but never enough.

then i get to be interviewed in POZ tomorrow for an upcoming article about treatment interruptions. soon be starting my autobiography. lol.

stay tuned. i promise to be back here soon. not going to make it back to louisville for derby this year. maybe next year.

well peace and love to all. rev. vernon.