dialogue to self about meds and life, i am HIV positive with Hep C

Friday, February 10, 2006

Hello world. i am back...i had no internet for about 2 weeks....ugh....i moved down to sarasota and it took some time to get my line up and running. i have no cable still and just today i got the internet. almost like camping with a condo. i got a condo down in sarasota, like i mentioned. it is about 2 miles straight out to seista key. it will be nice down here. also out my back door is the pool for the complex. can ya dig it!!! my cats love it also, there is a little kitty window that they can go out and sit on the screen patio. they are out there most of the time. slowly getting things unpacked. you know that takes some time. i am also working most days, but will have some time this weekend to put stuff away. going up north next weekend to do some skiing before the season ends. i am waiting to do some snowboarding. i hope i don't break anything. lol.

also recently started to play softball. i feel my age at night. i almost quit, but was encouraged by my sis to not at this early point. so i will try to show up for practice on sunday at 9am. my legs were like lead weight last nite... i could not move in the outfield. first game in about 8 years. and i even struck out, not once, but twice my first game. needless to say my florida debut of softball was not that great. i went 0-4 at the plate. coach said it was the pitcher...he was real good. i went 2-3 the next game. with those being both doubles. i have never struck out before, ever....now i can't say that....lol.

as you can image down here i am close to hooters, my fav. also there is a lot more action down here in sarasota, every one is not so close to the grave down here. it is nice and refreshing. and i can not wait to go to the beach every weekend.

working some on saturdays. we got off to a slow start this season. due to the warm weather up north.

well i am off of here for now. wanted to say hello. feeling fine and see doc next month in march. much peace and love to all who may read this....capt. vernon.

Monday, January 23, 2006

http://www.myspace.com/captcosmos


that is my site on myspace.com. i just opened up an account there. highly recommend it. i think. not much is new. i am moving down to sarasota this weekend. i guess you could say that is new. i can not wait. i have a pool out my back door like 15 steps away. i am moving into you could say an ant farm. it is a complex and i have one of the condo unit. i think the community will do me some good. i feel. more people around to look at. i will be grilling on the back porch a lot, and know i will be able to entice some ladies over for some grub. my motive. lol. it is like double my current space. and being in sarasota will be nice. i am like 3miles off seista key. and i have an extra bed room, so the invitation is open to all who may come down this way. feel free to drop in for a dip. lol.


weather has been nice and hot. some times i am not sure what month it is. but it is nice. today is was about 82 and yesterday my new home town had a record high at 85.

i have this head of david, the statue that michangelo made....well that statue is the symbol for sarasota. so i will fit right in. right now he is wearing my horns from my halloween costume. i was the devil in blue dress. so i had some horns. now david wears them. silly me.

well i am off to do some packing and some cooking. love you all. capt. vernon.

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

well i am doing well....even after the cardinals lost the gator game. lol. i had fun. what an atmostphere to be in....if you like college football. it was like a pep rally all weekend long. saw some old friends from the north and it was good.

not much else is happening here.. it has warmed up a little. it is about 82 degrees today. luv this weather for january. i am turning 41 this weekend. still feel young. again i think that age is just another way our society labels us.

also might be doing something with zoe's quilt piece tonight. i am supposed to be meeting with miss V. and meet her mother...so she can start on it.

also on other news...well i am moving down to sarasota finally. last couple of months i thought i might stay here in bradenton...until there arose an oppurtunity for me to move down there. there is this townhouse i am moving into off clark road. i know this means nothing to peeps up north...but i will be closer to the beach...closer to siesta key. i will be like 4 traffic lights off the key....sweet. more metro down there. sarasota is like southern california. not that i have been there....it just has a lot more pretty people. so i am moving out of this cowboy town...yippee

well not much else to report...peace and love to alll...capt cos.

Monday, December 26, 2005

hello world. again it has been about 2 weeks since i have been on here.. well i had a good xmas...got some cards in the mail this year and got some back as well. it was nice to hear from my peps up north. went to pasco county to see mum and sis and nieces for the day. sis down here was up in asheville so i was running the office...or should say i have been running the office. i was busy last week...but today there was no phone calls at all...it was dead. i left about 1pm or so..

well my next adventure is this weekend. here i was last week with nothing on the calendar for the next year. well i get this email note from the alumni chapter down here in tampa. well it seems that there are some louisville based businesses that have bought up chunks of seats for the gator bowl. all we have to do is ask for them and they are free. i was like well i can not make it there...then later in the day i was like...what the hell. it is only a 4 hour drive. so i sent an email and sure enough i got 2 tickets waiting for me....damn nice. i am off to jacksonville for the new years and the game is on the 2 of jan. man i must be living right or something. it ought to be nice....so i leave this saturday and will report on this next week. i promise.

other than that..i am fine. kinda of bored with life...but maybe that will change soon. went out this weekend and just was tired of being out with myself...so i came home early....both nites.

but life does go on...until next time....much peace and love...me

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

i had not realized i have been away for about a month now. not good. i will try to do more in the future....i am doing well. working hard. i will be working a lot over the upcoming xmas break. boss and sis are out of town so i will be in charge...shortly. that is.

i have seen my doctor in the mean time. my tcells went up to 276 from like 201. so they did not go up too far. or as far as i would have liked. i have been this alternative stuff now for like 3 months and i am not sure it is doing anything for me. there are others in the program that have had a big increase in their tcells. i will stay on it and see what happens. my viral load is still undetectable. so that is good. i am doing the one week on drugs and one week off drugs. the doc does not know about it. i feeling mostly well these days. another holiday without my zoe, but i am managing. still no one in my life....but i am alright with that. i can still watch football in my underwear...lol. not that i do that often...if ever.


i have adopted 2 cats or kittens i should say. 1 girl and 1 boy. they are named of course...frodo and sam...with the girl being sam for samatha....i like them and they seem to like me. how can they not...lol.

been doing a lot of soul searching lately. i am not sure if that is good or not. i spend a lot of time alone....so i think a lot. there is nothing to report though. in case you were waiting for some earth shattering news....lol.


well more about U2. since this was the first show that i had to pay for. let me tell you the stories behind each one..

the first show...was in 1988 or 89. their joshua tree tour. this girl i had just started to date, had another date with some one else on friday nite of that weekend. so i was like ok go and see...not really i was a little po'ed. but i got over it. well she was a party with this dude and was in the restroom where this girl had U2 tix she had won from the radio. bingo...miss B got them and called me the next day...saying we were off to see U2 the very next day...real cool. and it was a great show.

so then in may 97 or 98, zoe and i had bought tix. we were going to see there no matter what the costs. so we got our tix and they were for a show in columbus, oh at the state university football stadium....a huge place. the horsehoe for those football fans...well since the show was in columbus i did not know how long it would take to drive up there...so we left kinda early for a 730pm show. we left at 1pm and it only took about 3 hours from louisyville. so we got in town early. needless to say. where we had picked up a radio station in town before we got there. and the station said "finds us in the parking lot and we will bump up your seats for the show." we were like hell yeah. we knew we had nosebleed seats in the way back....so sure enough we found the station. we thought we might exchange our seats for theirs, but they were like you all came up here from louisville....here are 2 tickets. and they did not take ours...cool. so we were able to turn around and sell our tix before the show. no chit. so this past concert was the first U2 show i had to pay for. and let me tell you that i did try to win tix at 2 different events. but that is for another blog. at the ohio show we were able to leave the show and come back. we went out and got high....there was a lot of security around in the show...so we did not feel right about it.

again another story. me and zoe had some great times together...there is also the time she won $6000 on a scratch off ticket in louisville. no chit again. i will blog that down next time or real soon in the future.

i love you zoe and miss you and to all those others folks out there...well more peace and love to you all. capt. cosmos...


get busy living....or get busy dying...

Thursday, November 17, 2005

hullo world. well i have been to lousyville and back. and it went real well. i had a great time. went to the track...churchill that is. then on the same day went to see the cardinals play. life does not get any better. i even cashed in an box exacta ticket...yippee. first time for that. it was nice to see some old friends...and of course...there was not time to see everyone that i had planned... maybe next time.. which should be next summer. i have a niece that is graduating high school and will be taking her up for a visit. i think.

well again i also saw U2 last nite. i must be living right or something. it was an awesome show as only U2 can do. it was a blast. they even played a song that me and zoe danced to at our wedding..."For the first time".. it brought tears to my eyes. i had her on my mind a lot also. the last time i saw U2 was with her. so now i am having to see shows with out her. just one more thang to go through with out her. and it has been 2 years now. i was able to take come flowers out to her when i was there in lousyville. it was nice, at least therapuetic. i do miss her so.

but i am doing alright over all. not much else is happening. after U2 last nite i have nothing on the agenda for the foreseeable future. just hang out and work. try to save some money for sure.


well peace and love to all. capt.

Monday, November 07, 2005

hello world. well lets see where was i last time i was on here....i have been to treasure island and met some nice people but no special lady friend. oohwelll......i am then going to lousyville this week. it is zoe's anniversary. she has now been gone for 2 years. seems like yesterday... i read my blog and it helps me see that i was aware of the situation when it was happening. i am going to paid her a visit on sunday. her actual date. also a very close friend of mine is turning 40 up there in corydon. so she is having a big old party.... yipppeee.


i gave blood on halloween...it seemed only like the thing to do. i also went as a devil in blue dress for halloween. i was kinda of drag. just no tittys. i did not go that far...i did paint my face red....

some liked it. it took about 2 days it to wear all the way off.


i have had no more cheek injections since my first time. i am going to get it done again i think later this month.

i will at least check in to tell you all my blood count. i think i do not see any doctors until next month. they usually give me counts then. i know my hep c is gone for good. i am also on a lot of vitamins and other pharma products from the healthy PWA meetings. they have been nice meetings. you get to see others and then also the nutrional stuff they give us.


also U2 is in about 2 weeks. less then that really. i week from wednesday. i am going out tomorrow to see if i can win some from a radio station down here....be there


well, i am rambling on....not much to report. much peace and love to all. captcosmos

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

hello, been a little bit since i have been on here. not much is new. i am sitting here watching the show and series cosmos...my favorite series. my dad and i would watch this and compare notes on it the next day. they have remastered it for the digital age. and did you know that carl sagan was a pot head. just something i thought i would share. i am not doing much. waiting for yet another hurricane...maybe this weekend. wait and see...other than that, i am off to treasure island next week for the get together. hope something comes of it. i almost went to see this woman in pompano beach, but decided to wait and see what next week brings. and i am going to louisville next month as well....so i need to watch the money flow.


i am feeling alright. been doing this cleansing solution for your liver and takin this liquid miracle stuff. i give blood next week. i will report back. this lady in pompano was positive as well. we met on poz.com.

watched the movie million dollar baby tonite.. another reminder of zoe. how she dies at the end. well i do miss her. my heart is getting better and stronger each day.

what else is happening, well we are still kind of slow at work. but it should pick up soon.

my power supply went out today on my pc. i went to sleep, or took a nap and was wondering what could be wrong with my machine and when i awoke it dawned on me, that the power supply was bad. replaced it and wam here i am...

well the little russian girl wants to come and see me, she saids. she has asked for money now to help her get her. not sure i believe her or not. i am not sending any money...not yet anyway....lol.

well much peace and love to all. rev. vernon.
cya 1 ho.

Sunday, October 09, 2005

hello world. checking in from sunday afternoon, spent watching the bucs lose thier first game of the year. i am not too bad. my older sis was in town visiting this weekend. we had a wild time to say the least. went to ladies nite on thursday and then down into sarasota on friday nite. stayed home on sat. nite. i am feeling some what well. i have restarted the meds, again. i may have mentioned this or not. i started on august 8th. i am doing the 1 week on/1 week off. my docs don't like that...but we will see how it goes. i am on this new 1 pill drug. it has viread and 3tc together. kinda strong for the 3tc. i was on the 150mg when i started the week on/week off routine. i also started this alternative meds. it is like a liver cleaner and it helps with your GI tract as well. it is a powder that does not taste good, but i mix with my metamucil (sp). it is not too bad. and then this is this other liquid that has the flow of 10W40 motor oil. it is phasfolin. it is like major extra new cells. it helps with all sorts of stuff for your body. it is major shit. i am looking forward to my next blood count. i missed it last week, so i need to call them this week and set up another blood time. it is weird down here, they have you set up an appointment to give blood. whatever. i am also on this high bloodpressure meds. not sure what is up with that. i have not taken my BP any time as of late.

still single...still looking...lol. i am off to treaure island for a retreat this month. i hope. i need to make some sales though. the weather down here has been dry. september was the driest september since 1912. and then hopefully get some snow birds down here within the next month. that will help. i am making it though.


i am also scheduled to coming up to lousyville next month, for zoe anniversary. i plan to be there for that. i am coming in on a thursday nite and there is a cardinal game friday nite. so i will be there for that. for sure. then my dear friend miss t. is turning 40 and she is having a big old party. so that should be fun..

well gtg. peace and love to all. capt. vernon.

Monday, September 26, 2005

happy monday to all. well it was a shitty weekend for football. at least on cardinal planet. it was a quite shitty that they did not even show up to play. they did not take south fl. serious. it was ugly.

well my new cheeks have gone down a little bit. it is still better than where i was. so i am looking forward to getting the other treatments. just wished you did not have to wait 6 weeks between treatments. but the time will go by quick enough.

got a lot on my calendar in the next couple of months. next month going to spend the weekend at treasure island. there is a gathering of positive people. with any luck i might even meet some one. lol.

then in november i will be in lousyville for zoe's anniversary. hard to believe she has been gone now for 2 years, or will be then. i still miss her, and i still spend a lot of time alone. but i am getting on with life. what else is there to do, right?

i have not talked to miss 1 ho in awhile either. she is having a rough time as of late. i do hope that she finds peace one day.

as for me, well i am doing alright. did the st. pete aids walk on saturday. it was nice to get out and meet some people. well my chicken is on the grill. gotta go. peace and love to all. capt. vernon.

Thursday, September 22, 2005

well i am back. i am sitting here getting ready for another thurday nite ladies nite at the distillery. i did see the doctor yesterday. my tcells only went up like 22 points. they are now at 223, but my viral load went undetectable and that is only after3 weeks of being back on treatment. i saw a different doc yesterday. what is that like 3 docs in 3 months. not good. but yesterday this was another lady doc, so that was ok. you know me and the lady docs get along much better. or something. my hep c viral load is still undetectable. and that has been since may 7, 2001 since i last had my interferon in me. so that virus is no doubt gone from my system. only about 40 % of hivers with hep c are able to clear the virus from thier system. 1 of the lucky ones, i guess. it is nice to know. my first doc down here would not draw that test, she would say, "well we are not going to treat it, if it comes back positive". so i had another doc draw for that test. i will my doc in KY know about this test. yippee.

on other news...well get this....i had my first injection in my cheeks this week. i had some plastic surgery, you could say. there is this poly l lactic something that they inject into your cheeks, for people with sunken cheeks like me. it is called facial lipoatrophy. so i had this done on tuesday nite. you have to have like 2 to 4 treatment sessions, depending how bad your cheeks look. i am going to have 4 treatments. and you have to wait like 6 weeks between treatments. so mine will go into something like next march or so until i am done. but then the results last about 2 to 3 years. i am pysch. i almost don't look sick any more. the first treatment will not really hold, you might look good for like 4 days, but it goes back down. so i am expecting that. but if the end results look like me now...then look out world. again....something for me. i am trying to do things for myself in my new life down in florida.


well again i hope this finds every one doing well up north. i am going to plan on being in town for november 13th weekend. that would be zoe anniversary, so i think i need to be there this year. also there is this other person who is turning 40 up there and she would like for me to be in town. so i am going to recycle on my 40th bday crap. lol.

well much peace and love to all.capt. vernon.

Sunday, September 18, 2005

well i am back. been some time since i was on here. where to begin at. last week i was up in asheville, NC. helping my sis and bro in law move. they are moving up there for good next june. after the school year. i had a good time up there. ought to be a nice town for them. i look forward to visiting them there. lots of stuff to do. i went out for about 3 hours in the blue ridge mountains. did some hiking and drove on the blue ridge parkway. really really nice. then next summer will do some white water rafting up there. that ought to be fun.

you might be wondering what will happen to the business that i am working at. i may have mentioned this already, but he is going to put me in charge of running the business. yippee. they were going to sell it, and they still might, but there are more benefits for them, if they keep it up and running. which i hope i can do....i know i can. and there is going to be more money in it for me....again yippeee....

as for my health. well they have scheduled me again for another doctor. in the last 3 visits to the clinic i have seen 3 different doctors. irks the hell outta of me. but i do get my bloodwork back next time. i see a doctor this week, so i will get back on here and tell ya about the latest counts.


as for other news, well the country i am convinced is going to hell in a hand basket. there was this outrage about bush not responding to katrina and his crony that was in charge of FEMA. well that bonehead got there when the confirmation committee accepted bush's nominee. they all voted for him. so congress should be somewhat to blame as well. george w does not know how to govern and the rest of the country put him in there for another 4 years. GOD is there no common sense in the frickin country any more. we need a regime change here at home. please help the red cross or any other charity for the folks in gulf area.


well enough from me. i was glad i got to see new orleans this year. i plan on going back next spring for the jazz fest, if they have it.

i have been quite busy this summer. lets see i went to new orleans, twice in may, in lousyville in july and then the keys in august and now asheville in september. i have decided to go back to lousyville for a visit. i will be up there for zoe's anniversary in november. stay tuned...


well much peace and love to all out there..today i am hosting a positive connection day out for socializing. we are going to be bowling. my idea. will let you all know how it turns out.

for now peace out....rev. vernon.
well i am back. been some time since i was on here. where to begin at. last week i was up in asheville, NC. helping my sis and bro in law move. they are moving up there for good next june. after the school year. i had a good time up there. ought to be a nice town for them. i look forward to visiting them there. lots of stuff to do. i went out for about 3 hours in the blue ridge mountains. did some hiking and drove on the blue ridge parkway. really really nice. then next summer will do some white water rafting up there. that ought to be fun.

you might be wondering what will happen to the business that i am working at. i may have mentioned this already, but he is going to put me in charge of running the business. yippee. they were going to sell it, and they still might, but there are more benefits for them, if they keep it up and running. which i hope i can do....i know i can. and there is going to be more money in it for me....again yippeee....

as for my health. well they have scheduled me again for another doctor. in the last 3 visits to the clinic i have seen 3 different doctors. irks the hell outta of me. but i do get my bloodwork back next time. i see a doctor this week, so i will get back on here and tell ya about the latest counts.


as for other news, well the country i am convinced is going to hell in a hand basket. there was this outrage about bush not responding to katrina and his crony that was in charge of FEMA. well that bonehead got there when the confirmation committee accepted bush's nominee. they all voted for him. so congress should be somewhat to blame as well. george w does not know how to govern and the rest of the country put him in there for another 4 years. GOD is there no common sense in the frickin country any more. we need a regime change here at home. please help the red cross or any other charity for the folks in gulf area.


well enough from me. i was glad i got to see new orleans this year. i plan on going back next spring for the jazz fest, if they have it.

i have been quite busy this summer. lets see i went to new orleans, twice in may, in lousyville in july and then the keys in august and now asheville in september. i have decided to go back to lousyville for a visit. i will be up there for zoe's anniversary in november. stay tuned...


well much peace and love to all out there..today i am hosting a positive connection day out for socializing. we are going to be bowling. my idea. will let you all know how it turns out.

for now peace out....rev. vernon.

Sunday, August 28, 2005

well not much happening here. i wanted to let you all know that i am doing better. i am like they say, getting stronger with each passing day. for some reason or another, i was kinda blue last week. not sure why. besides i hate the month of august. i got sick in august of 94. so this month always has sucked.

as for other news. well i have been on the yahoo singles, off and on since january. with little success. and i have had like 4 or5 russian women contact me. now it always got down to me asking them, if they are serious about coming to america. and then i ask if they need money. i am no dummy and would never send any money over there. well the latest young lady who has contacted me is also very pretty like they all have been. i always picture some hairyfat russian man on the other end. well like i said this latest is very nice looking. and she even called the house on friday. kind of blew me away. i got home to that message on friday. kind of made my day. this is one guy who would go for a russian mail order bride. not that i like the notion of going shopping for women like they are merchandise, i don't agree with that, but we met through the personals. so any way. i will keep everyone abreast of details.


much peace and love, capt. cos. xxx

Thursday, August 25, 2005

well i am back for another hurricane weekend. lol. i am doing not too bad. looking for some body who likes nascar and fatness. lol. my new little saying is pww. for pasty white women. pww. i know i am going to hell already. i say to myself in my head, another PWW. or NCWW. and that is nascar, christian, white woman. so i dont like those either. NCWW. when will i learn.

other than that. i am doing alright. wuz hoping that katrina would give us some business. but she looks like she will make landfall in the panhandle. again mikey loses. meaning i will have to work tomorrow. some folks were out tonight like they were in for a snow storm tomorrow and that work would be called off. like me. lol. no luck. just like the snow storms up north, this storm missed bradenton and will cause trouble elsewhere. such is life. i am home at least from another ladies nite and going to bed with katrina just off shore and looking to make landfall in the handle area. i hope it stays that way over nite.

much peace and love to all. capt. cosmos..

Monday, August 15, 2005

well hello world. i am off to the keys this weekend. yippeee.. things are not too bad. i am going down with the group that i went with to new orleans, so maybe keep your fingers crossed. i picked up some scuba gear this weekend, so i am going to be doing some diving, at least some snorkeling this weekend.


not much else is happening. we are slow at work...but life is good.

peace and love to all. capt. vernon.

Thursday, August 11, 2005

another thursday nite @ the club. i am sweating like i am in heat. nice dance nite. and i shot pool, not soo bad. i made it home by 1230am and ready for another day of selling roofs. i am off to the keys next week. i can not wait. i think, that 1 could lose themselves at the keys, at least that is what i hear.....first timer for me. me and bryan went down to key largo in 1991, but we only stayed 1 day. probably due to me with no money.. different story these days....here is hoping that i make it home with a mermaid. wouldn't that be nice for me....well peace and love to all....i am still rockin on thursday nite...hello sally @ uofl. hope you see this and smile. called you lately, but no answer. come on down on labor day weekend. we are having an orgy....lol. not really but i am going alone for the keys. no baggage....lol... still love ya, call me.... rev. vernon and capt. cosmos both signing off.

p/l

Monday, August 08, 2005

well i started this blog with the news that i was going to be on structured treatment interuption. well today marks the day that i am going to start taking drugs full time. that is my hiv drugs. starting with a new 1 today and there was no bad side effects, so far. i made it through the day. and not much else has changed. i am still working out at the gym...still eating dinner alone at home. lol. work is not too bad. my tcells at last count was 201 and my viral load is at 5432 or something like that. i saw the man doctor last time...not good. this doc does not know me and talks at me...not with me. i will never see him again...that is for sure. i just do not like him. then he cuts my sleep drugs in 1/2 for nigth sleep. he did not ask me how i am sleeping....no talk about it either. i was really upset about seeing a different doctor. i felt that they (the clinic) is fucking with my life that way. i do not like it...and will hopefully not see him again..


i have not heard from any one up north. especially miss 1 ho. she called once, but honestly i did not pick it up. i do not like confrontation and try to avoid all that shit. life is too short to stay angry or upset with any one person in this life.

well much peace and love to all who may read these pages....rev. vernon.

Friday, July 29, 2005

well the capt has been found. i am doing alright. sorry i have not been on here for a very long time. i am currently staying at my sisters house and watching my niece. she is about to turn 18 in 2 weeks. so she don't need much watching. lol. her friends on the other hand....lol....

my counts as of late. well here they are on july 2 i gave blood, i think or that was the last time on the counts i saw. my tcells are 201, 1 above being AIDS classified. whoopy... my viral load is only at 5435. something like that. i have been off meds since last october, so i think that is a very good thing to have. i was kinda glad to see those numbers. i saw them while at my counselor appt. i also gave my counselor her walking papers. i told her that i can now see life with out her... and i am doing alright. if we are ever doing alright in this life.


i have been selling my ass off. this past week i sold this big ol commercial jobs. it was sweet. big pay day next week....i should get the girl...lol.

no one in my life at this point. i am going to the keys next month for a 4 day weekend. with the same group from new orleans. maybe not the same people, just the same ASO... i am also in the beginning stages of getting a chapter of that group established here in Tampa bay area. we are possitiveconnections.org Tampa bay area. we have social every month that includes doing a social in one of the 7 counties in this area.


well football is about to start. and that always bring this area to it's feet. and the cards are playing down here this september. they play USF on the 24th. yippeee. can not wait to be in that crowd with all RED on...lol. hopefully all predictions will come true for the cards in both football and basketball this year. it is an exciting time to be a cardinal fan. i am sure i would stay drunk most of the year, were i in town. makes missing lousyville that much better.

also bad time to be in the nasa business. as you mite be ab le to tell that i am a big space fan, from the name. i am sadden that the shuttle era is at en end. i was there in the beginning. remember that the launches were as exciting as the apollo launches. but it is, i feel, well past the time that we should have another plan. we need to continue to put man in space. and we will. i hope.. .... i would love to be launched into space. but my stomach would not handle it.

well i have yak enough for now. i hope to be on here again this week. i see the real doctor on tuesday and will have a better handle on what is happening to me. i mite or mite not begin meds again. stay tuned. much love and peace to all. rev. vern.

hello 1 ho. call me if you read this...i still love you and miss you...another heartbreak in lousyville...p/l

Friday, July 08, 2005

well it has been way too long since i have been on here. here is an update from the road. i just got back this past wednesday night from louisville. i took my niece there for her graduating high school. she graduated a year early due to her smartness. we had a good time. it is always good to be in louisville. did not get to see several people. there is just not enough time. i might be going back next month. who knows. i got all my shit out of storage and i continue to go through the huge pile of memories. i might have to put some in storage down here after all. i was trying to avoid doing that down here at least. life is not too bad. i had my moments and still do going through the pics mostly. i got all my big framed art on the wall. was not sure i had the room for it. but it worked out.


as for my health, well i am still not taking any meds. my doc took blood last month and i see her on 25th of this month. they did a genotype test on my virus and it turns out that my virus is still sensitve to all the meds on the market. my doc was a little shocked at this, since i have been doing what i have been since last october.

i feel fine and will have to change my ways soon when i start the meds. i am sure i will begin them again this month.

then i have a friend from POZ moving to gainesville next week. i might go up there for a night or so. i have never been to gainesville. it is the home of the gators, for those who did not know. also the cards play south florida down here this fall. like in 2 months or so. i can not wait for that. i see big dave again next thursday. i will enjoy that, of course.

well peace and love to all. rev. vernon.