well today is sunday and that means a drum circle on seista key. i will be leaving here in about 2 hours. not much else is happening. not sure if i mentioned this last time or not. but i have been taken off hiv drugs due to the buildup of lactic acid in my blood. it can be fatal, but we caught it in time now. so i am off drugs for 6 months or until my blood dictates it time to get back onto therapy. my count was 20 when over 15 is 60% fatal. so i am doing well. in that regards.

i start playing football next week. it is a 4 on 4 flag football league. see if these old legs can still rumble. lol. we will see.

last wednesday nite, night before thanksgiving, i shot my ass off in pool. i could not be touched. i held the table for like 2 1/2 hours. i only lost 1 game during that time. cool.

well i am off to shower after the gym. hope all is well. peace and love to all. rev. vernon.

yes it has been some time since i have been on here. well i have made it through the 1st year without zoe. and i find myself still missing her. the book i am reading it mentioned that when you lose some one, it is also giving up that habit of that person in your life. so you have to give up that habit as well. well it has been hard to break that habit.

as for me. well i recently started playing on a 4 on 4 person flag football. so i am getting out of the house some more now. we practice on monday nite and then again on saturday a.m. the season starts on dec 1, world aids day. so i wont make it to any of the local remembrances of the day. i mite, we will have to see. there is this one lady that is in the local scene. we she looks just like zoe, if that is not bad enough. she is positive as well. so i have been trying to see her, anywhere i can.

as for now. well i am ok. about to burn dinner.

found out last week that miss j moved back up north. so that is definetly over with. what a bummer. as long as she was in town, i always held out hope. so now there is no hope. and i must go on life. i am doing just that.

well peace and love, rev. vernon.

i will be back here soon. i promise.

hello world. long time no talk to.... i am doing alright i guess. been now 1 year with out zoe this past saturday. the last couple of days is has been on my mind. as you might guess. it may just be me, but i am getting on with life. i just started to practice with a 4 on 4 flag football team. we start on dec 1. world aids day. ia m going to be sore tomorrow. i can tell. it has been like 6 years or so, since i played any regular sports. so these old bones will take some getting used to running again.

i went to put some ashes on another beach this past weekend. in honor of zoe. it was a beach we went to often. if she was not at the sponge docks. or i would drop her off at the sponge docks and go to howard beach. i intend to put some out the local beach as well.

i still miss her. hard to believe it has been 1 year already....it has been one hell of a long year, it seems. then it seems like yesterday i was trying to get her upstairs to bed. and then the last nites we spent on the living room floor with her... she was in her hospital bed. i have not thought of that moment for some time now. whews....

then i went to see norah jones last week. another show she would have liked to be at. going to RENT tomorrow nite. should be excellent. as always. but again i take her spirit with me. i love you all. and you too honey.... rev. vernon.

monday nite and not too much going on. i worked today most of it, kinda. then went to the gym and home to dinner. tonite's menu consisted of chicken thighs on gril, with flavored noodles and corn on the cob for 1. this is the week of big events.

the first being that is is zoe's 1 year anniversary. hard to believe it has been 1 year. then at times it seems like this has been 1 long ass year. it has not been 1 of my favorites. that is for sure. but i am coping and going on with life. i think zoe would have want it to be so. i still talk to her. mostly in the car. and then there are times i look up to talk to her. i miss her dearly at times. it is mostly music that sparks my memory. and with that, the 2nd event takes place this week. my sis and i see norah jones this friday nite. so the events take place in reverse order. but it is still going to be one of helluva week. it has been on my mind heavily that is for sure. i have a special 1 oh putting flowers on her grave for me. thank god. there are some times that i think that i abandon louisville, or abandon her, and her grave site. now i wonder if any body visits her. i hope they do honey....and i am thinking of you often.

peace and love, reverend watery eyes....