it is 6 days before xmas and i had a doctor visit today. so i thought i would report in.. also have some shit to get off my chest i guess. well my tcells are up to 400. only because i stayed on meds until i they took my blood. i can play thier games as well. only that this game is about my life. 2 people, staff members told me today that i wuz killing myself with this 1 week on and 1 week off shit. they both kind of laugh in my face. one of these was my doc. really now. i was adviced to do this by the great doc. H in louisville ky and i truly believe it works and has since this blog as started. so go figure. there is always an outlier in all studies. that outlier is now myself. thank you very much. i feel fine and my CBC is all in the normal range. so go figure. even my liver numbers are in the normal range. i want to thank Eve Prang for her support at her HEALTHY PWA PROGRAM out of MCC in sarasota. this program, i can not say enough about it has put me into high gear of great health. that is no shit. i feel great except for the small headaches i get with the therapy. one more reason to not take it for a week.

well i am still alone. my friend in south florida, miss s. dont think she is coming up here for new year eve. well well. it has been now 5 new years eve with out my best friend wife, my zoester. and i thought i might have some company this year, but no luck. miss s. stopped taking my calls or even calling me back. what is up with that shit. you look at me and think that i have no problem finding some women or so. well it is in my head about this hiv shit. i am going to get this woman at the gym. or at least i hope. she is another miss j though. she is hot.

for this year i am giving out zoe's book to friend down here in florida. they are getting a little piece of me and zoe. i am sharing more and more of myself. and that is a good thing.

even though i have not spoken to my roommate in 2 weeks. i dont think that is a good thing. but who knows.

stay tuned on that front.

i have been on 2 roofs this week and might be on more later. i am slowing being trained to put on roofs. i have installed 2 this week, like i mentioned and will be putting on more in the future. who would have thunk it. little ole me installing roofs and working with power tools. i can even drive a fork lift now.

well much love to all who read these words. and merry christmas or happy hannauka and happy new year to all.

capt vern.

xxxoooo

hello world. how are things going for everyone out there.? i hope find the holidays are upon us. yippee. this makes my 5th xmas with out zoe. it kind of got to me last night. she passed on some of courage to me. last nite while at the bar, i was sitting there and some one said that magic had to be gay, due to the fact that it is impossible for hiv to be transmitted from woman to man. i bit my lip for about 3 minutes and then spoke up. you are looking at a male who that very thing happened to him. they were like stun for a moment. people usually dont go around discussing this disease. in the state of florida you have to test pos first to get into the clinic and others services, so i have my card in my wallet at all times. i told them about how to and how not to get infected.. i told them a little bit about me and zoe's life together. i have one of the small pics in my wallet of the three of us. so i showed them that. i look great and flashed my biceps and said that. i strive to take good care of myself. i am running on days that i am not lifting. so i am the gym every day. anyway. i hope that they see me in another light now. who knows what they are thinking or were thinking last nite. i pretty much told the whole bar, but there was only like 5 people there. i would have felt like a coward if i did not mention something. i like to put a face on this disease. sooner or later, i think i will be in the newspapers down here as well. still educating people into this century. so i had zoe on my mind a lot last night. after meeting her, you knew she was positive within the first 5 minutes of meeting her. she was that way. i just dont want to be seen only by my disease. but as someone that has overcome this disease. i told them that people are still dying and that it is not cured yet. and until that time it is people like myself that should help keep the public's mind on this disease.

well much peace and love to all who may read these words. i see doc next wednesday so i will report in to tell you all my numbers. stay tuned. i am looking for a high tcell # since i stayed on meds for 2 weeks to give blood.

peace and merry christmas.

this country needs to elect a democrat next year and do more for global warming. more on that on a later blog.

captcosmos